❝guarded.❞ ↠ jerrie thirlwards (sequel to s.s.)

seven

now I'm searching every lonely place..
trying to find you but i just don't know.. where do broken hearts go?
-where do broken hearts go? ; one direction

PERRIE

I take a seat on the soft couch that is so vaguely familiar that it ruins my mind every time I take a seat. Every Sunday is just a very nerve racking experience that I am always glad for it to be over. Dr. Kennedy takes a seat in his normal chair in front of me, giving me that same sympathetic look as he always does. He always thinks it's okay to just give a patient that look, when in reality, it just makes us think all he's doing is giving us some stupid pity that we don't want.

He places his clipboard on his lap and slowly claps his hands together loudly. "So, Perrie, how are we?" he asks me, smiling this time. It's not technically sympathetic, which is strangely more calming than if it was, but there was still a hint of pity laying there.

"I am fine," I tell him, trying to restrain myself from shouting at him for being a shit therapist. The last time that happened, all that ended up in was him telling me I've got anger issues and that I should get that checked out. Thanks, therapist. "How are you, Luke?"

The use of his first name makes him tense up. "Please call me by my professional name," he tells me in a stern voice. I call him Luke everyday, just to irritate him. Plus, I also like it way better than calling him Dr. Kennedy.

"I thought friends were able to call each other by first names?" I ask, smiling smugly. Luke always hates having to speak to me; you can see it in his face. Everytime I walk into his room, everytime he sees me in the waiting room. He knows how annoying I could become.

"I am your therapist, not your friend," he tells me, looking down at his clipboard. Ouch. "Now, did anything happen since we've spoken last?"

I shrug. "Besides getting laid, nope," I say smoothly. He looks at me to find any hint of sarcasm but he'll find none. I just smile at him and lean back into the couch, resting both of my arms on the top of the couch.

"Jade, correct?" he asks me, writing something down on the clipboard.

I nod my head, raising my eyebrows. "Of course Jade, she is my wife," I say, scoffing. "Did you think that I cheated?"

"Well, after the Zayn incident-"

"I would never, ever hurt Jade," I say, voice raising. He very much irritates me as well and I think he knows it. "Don't you fucking doubt me just because of that one time I screwed up, okay, Luke?"

He gets quiet for a while and begins rubbing his temple. "Get out of my office, this session is over."

-

I open the door to the house, storming into the living room. I plop myself down on the couch that was familiar but made me feel happy. Many memories were made on this couch. I close my eyes and let some flashbacks hit me.

"Mom!" Jessica shouts, smiling up at me. Even sitting on the couch made me seem like such a giant compared to her; it was absolutely adorable. "I made over mommy!"

Confused, I looked over to the side. There's Jade, make up all over her face. Her lips were a bright red, smeared all over the place. Eyeliner was all over her face; cheeks, forehead, chin, and even neck. She looked so frustrated, her hair tied up in a messy bun and her eyes tired. "You look beautiful, babe," I say, snickering.

"Oh, shut up," she mutters. Before she says anything to me, she looks down at Jessica. "You did amazing, baby, but you do need some work, alright?"

Jessica nods, giggling at the sight of her mommy. She pulls at my arm and smiles. "Doesn't mommy look more beautiful now?" she asks me, her face showing pure pride in what she had done. Who knew a child could be so proud over something that isn't that great. But it was truly cute, so I won't complain.

"Yes she does," I say, laughing. When I look over at Jade, she gives me a look, which makes me laugh even more. "Maybe the two of you should get cleaned up."

Only Jade agrees, grabbing Jessica's hand and pulling her to the bathroom with her. Jessica tries to protest, saying she doesn't want mommy to wash her face off yet because she's so beautiful. I laugh to myself until they leave. God, do I love my family.

I sigh, looking down at the floor beneath me.

"Mom's home!"

I look over to the side of me and see Jessica wobbling toward me. Her hands were covered in chocolate, meaning she's been eating plenty of it. She hugs me, probably getting chocolate all over me, but I don't care. I pick her up, setting her down on my lap. "How have you been, sweetie-pie?"

She giggles and plays with a strand of hair. "Good," she says, smiling down at me.

Jade appears from the kitchen and smiles at me. "She's been eating a lot of chocolate today," she tells me. "So, she may be a bit hyper."

"Well, isn't that just wonderful," I say before tickling the little girl. She giggles, trying to get out of my grip. When I let go, she jumps off of my lap and runs off into her room.

Jade walks up to me and sighs. "Harry and Louis called," she tells me, a frustrated and sad look on her face. I pat the seat beside me and wrap my arm around her as she sits. "They said that Zayn didn't go into prison, but the restraining order was made. Bad thing is, Zayn isn't taking it so well."

"Hm?" I hum, confused.

"Harry says he's still planning to get you to love him," she tells m, scoffing afterwards. "Honestly, he needs to head to a mental ward of some sort because he is fucking mental thinking that he can take you away from me."

I nod, smiling. "Jerrie forever."

"What the fuck is a Jerrie?" she asks me, eyeing me weirdly. I burst out laughing, which made her even more confused.

"It's our names mashed together," I tell her. "Jesy told me about it. Jade plus Perrie equals Jerrie."

"Why can't it be Pade?" she asks me, biting onto her bottom lip. "I want my name to be in it more." I laugh at how selfish she sounds, but also find it incredibly cute.

"Sure, babe, we can be Pade."

She pulls out her fist, indicating she wants a fist bump. I laugh at the immaturity but fist bump her anyways.

"Pade forever," we say in unison.

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PADE. IM STILL LAUGHING IT SOUNDS SO WEIRD.

but it seems like some of you didn't like last chapter, whoops. it was smutty and confusing, i get it. get over it you innocent little babies.

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