Wow the first time in forever I made myself throw up, sorry I am saying this because that will stop the emotions to build up inside of me, sorry
Luke had passed away one week ago and you were not coping well, every time you wake up the bed is empty, there is no smell of pancakes in the morning filling the house, there is no Luke Hemmings.
The boys decided to not end their carrier because Luke would probably want them to still leave their dream, you were basically by yourself when they were on tour, you didn’t go outside but when it came to it, it was just the smile and ‘ I’m fine ‘ phrase but inside you were just a big ball of depression, every night you would cry to lukes pillow, he would of hated this, the way you cried and had bad dreams, every day you were closer to committing suicide , the sight of happy people reminded you of luke, everything reminded you of luke even the razor blade that he flushed down the toilet to save you, and the small penguin he drew with a sharpie on your leg.
Liz invited you to her house; she let you stay there, in lukes room. The black guitar and the pink speakers, the posters of different bands, just like his band that he was in because he finally made it, he was living his dream until one day, that terrible day that you had to stay in work, when you came back you saw the front door open and luke lying on the floor in a pool of blood and the grey t-shirt with a hole in near his heart and the small box that was in his front pocket of his skinny jeans, but its all gone, except for the small box with the diamond ring in it, you broke down and started to cry until liz came to check if everything was alright, you sat in lukes bed and opened the box your tear landed on the diamond that was twisted with 2 silver sides, the ring had the quote ‘ love you to the moon and back ‘ you cried harder liz hugged you, she was crying now to “he is fine now, I promise he is watching over you” she said you nodded “it was obviously meant to be” she said leaving the room
Three days had passed and you were now in your bathroom with a hundreds of different pills “I am sorry, I know you don’t want me to do this but I have to, I can’t live on luke, I am sorry” you said swallowing the pills.
I am sorry this is depressing
