Maddie's pov:
mom came home from the hospital sooner than she always does and then I knew. mackenzie was gone. I broke down complete.
"WHY DID I GO TO NEW YORK WHEN SHE WAS DYING!" i screamed tears uncontrollably streaming down my eyes.
"Madison it's not-"
"MOM YES IT IS!"
I ran off to my room to cry till something starts to make sense,I grabbed my headphones and turned on broadway music I put it on wicked because it was her favorite. I almost felt she was there with me,singing along and doing the dance moves which she knew by heart. I thought of all the stuff she wanted to do but never did. I did that for hours not believing that mackenzie is gone.
"kenz?" I say in a whisper
"are you there?" I asked into the darkness.
"mackenzie?" I said once agin.
"come...come back." I cried.
I cried for once again for that seemed like hours till I fell into a light dazed sleep. a poem once read
'you know what hurts the most?
the second in the morning were
you've just woken up, and for
those precious second you've
forgotten the reason your
unhappy, the reasons your so
broken. and then it hits you agin
like a stab to the heart and you
remember all the reasons you
didn't want to wake up
that's hurts.'
that's how this morning felt,I woke up wondering why I was home but then it was like my brain turned on a couple of seconds later and said;
"oh your home because your twelve year old sister died from cancer."
I slowly took my phone out and keep telling myself mackenzie would want me to be sorry. I looked through my photos of mackenzie and I. I didn't have many because of New York. I found one that I took of her and I the day before she died. I desisted It was time to tell the world aka Pittsburg and part of New York that she's gone.
I posted the photo,she looked so sad and hurt. It took me forever to caption the photo I keep crying even harder and falling right back on my bed finally I was able to;
"12 years will truly never be enough baby sister,yesterday at 1:34 in the afternoon heaven gained one amazing little girl. I wish heaven had wifi kenz so I could text you. I miss you more than words mackenzie,but heaven couldn't wait for you and it's very lucky to have you,rest in peace to the best ten years in my life,I love you mackenzie."
it took me even longer to be able to press 'post' button.
I walked out to the living room were mom was siting with mailboo watching today show,she was actually holding up quiet good. I didn't feel like talking to her or anyone right now. I slowly made my way into Mackenzie's room to find a note on Mackenzie's desk were all the stuff brought home from her hospital room was,I picked it up and started to read it,
"today I woke up and was informed I had been sleeping for over a month and I probably won't make it one more day,so it's a good time to leave a death note. dear Alex,I'm sorry,I'm sorry I let you care about you,I'm really sorry. Ella,thanks for being my friend when no one was there. Maddie,god Maddie please please go back to New York,please for me."
that's all I needed to read I would go back for her after her funeral.
"I'll back for you,only you kenz." I whisper to a photo of her that sat on her desk.
she was never simply gone,she left too much down here to ever be really gone
YOU ARE READING
xoxo
Fanfictionsixth grade was the year kids started dating,mackenzie ziegler didn't think she was gonna be one of those kids. till she met Alex,and Kenzie liked him right away. but Alex was popular the complete opposite of mackenzie. but then stuff started to ha...
