Halfway Around The World (Changlix)

Pain

⚠️contains detailed violence⚠️

"It's Felix..." At those words my heart dropped and I felt my body tense.

"What happened?"

"We don't know. We couldn't even get the door open, but by now I think the others have knocked it down" Hyunjin replied and I took a deep breath.

"Did he lock the door?"

"Yeah. And we heard screaming..." Jeongin said, his innocent face had no trace of a smile and was instead a mix worry and fear. I pushed past them and ran into the building and up the stairs as fast as I could. I heard the others behind me but I needed to see what had happened. By the sounds of things, Felix is really, mentally hurt.

Minho's POV

As soon as we got the door open, we ran in to see Felix on the floor in a teary mess. He seemed alright but then I realised that he wasn't breathing properly and was gasping for air through the tears. I rushed over and crouched down next to him, Seungmin doing the same. I sighed as I patted his back.

"What did I do- WHAT DID I DO WRONG!???" Felix yelled, his voice filled with pain. He was confused and he was hurt. His reaction to what had happened just made this whole situation feel stranger to me. He shouldn't care about Changbin this much after only a month or so right? That's why I was confused.

Felix's POV

I forced myself to look at Minho. My eyes were trying to shut because of the tears but I couldn't let them just yet. He seemed like he was deciding whether or not he should speak and then he did.

"Felix, you did nothing wrong. It was what the manager and Jyp had said to Changbin. Not in person with Jyp but over the phone and in person with the manager. Something they said changed him... you've done nothing wrong." His words didn't seem to comfort me. My pain didn't cease. But something stronger than that hurt built up inside of me, overcoming me. I felt my body shake, my breathing become faster and heavier and the tears stop.

Rage and anger blinded me and I stood up and looked to the doorframe where the door once stood. I started to run but Seungmin caught me, wrapping his arms around me to stop me from moving. I tried to shove him off but his grip was tight. Minho then joined in, holding me back. I screamed and used all my strength to try to break through their arms, but I soon realised I couldn't and the tears came again. They were a mix of sadness and anger and I couldn't hold them back. I shoved the boys away  from me after they had relaxed and I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in there.

I sat on the toilet, but with the lid down, and I put my head in my hands and cried. I didn't even bother trying to stop it this time. I hadn't known Changbin for years like I had known the others but it felt like I had.

I had found the one person who made me feel happier than I had ever felt. The one person who was my home, my everything and I couldn't quite believe that those feelings were there in such a small amount of time.

But now, that one person is gone. And there's nothing I can do about it.

I wasn't even sure that I was ever going to see him again....

Minho's POV

I watched as Seungmin banged on the bathroom door as I waited by the now knocked down front door for Jeongin, Chan and Hyunjin. I hung my head and closed my eyes trying my best to focus. I took a deep breath and let it out but just as I let it out I heard a loud smash from inside the bathroom.

And again.

And again.

And then that's when I realised what was happening and I ran over to the bathroom door and joined Seungmin by knocking violently on the door.

"FELIX!!!! LET US IN NOW!!!! PLEASE!!!!" I yelled, but he answered with screams and tears, not words.

I ran into the kitchen to find a key or something metal and flat. I found a key so I ran back and started by putting the key in the line that the lock had on the outside and I began to push it so that the lock would open and when it eventually did, Seungmin opened the door.

Both me and him gasped at almost the same time and I felt as though I was frozen on the spot.

Chan's POV

I saw some light coming from a doorway and it made me run faster. I ignored the door on the floor and went straight into the dorm. I saw Minho and Seungmin standing by the bathroom and they looked like statues until Seungmin moved inside the room.

I hurried over, but then stopped short as I saw the inside of the bathroom.

My eyes first saw the smashed mirror and the blood on it and then I slowly looked down to the sink which had even more blood in it and then I looked down to the floor and was met with a sight that I didn't want to ever have to see. The glass was scattered all over and blood was smeared on the lower part of the wall and on tiled floor.

My eyes landed on Felix who was leaning against the wall and sitting on the ground. He looked lifeless. He looked dead.

But he was still breathing.

His breaths were shaky and he was staring past me with bloodshot and puffy red eyes. His left hand was tightly holding a shard of now blood-red glass and that same hand was bleeding. I inspected him closer and saw that his arms had a couple of fresh cuts on them and his legs were also bleeding from the shards of glass he had obviously knelt on. His right hand was bruised and bloody from punching the mirror so many times and the skin of his knuckles had been ripped off.

He did this to himself!?

I let out a breath that I didn't even know I was holding in.

"Hyunjin call an ambulance!" I shouted over to where he was standing and then went and carefully knelt beside Felix with Seungmin. Minho was still frozen to the spot.

"It's going to be alright Felix, you'll see" I said but all that I got from Felix was eerie silence.

(About 1/3 of the way through writing this chapter I realised that I'm going to have to write what I wanted to write in one chapter as two chapters so that's what I'm going to do. This chapter isn't as long as I had originally planned but I just knew that with the detail I wanted to put in here, it would be a lot longer than I wanted it to be.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter! 🌟
The next chapter should be out within a week!!!)