Halfway Around The World (Changlix)

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(three days after the incident)
Felix's POV

I feel cold...

I feel broken...

I feel alone...

But why am I so depressed?

He's not gone forever...

Right?

I feel incomplete with him gone...

I'm scared...

Scared of the possibility that I really won't get to see him again...

No, scared isn't the right word...

I'm petrified...

Petrified of losing him...

Petrified of the possibility that I won't get to see him one last time before I-

"FELIX!"

Someone yelling my name only just about brought me back to reality, but I refused to look at the person who had just entered my room and my mouth didn't move.

"Felix!?"

They said again, walking in front of me, waving their hand across my eyes.

"Felix, come on bro, answer me" Chan said, once again trying to get my attention, but I made no effort to reply. I just sat there on the hospital bed, staring out of the window.

My thoughts were chaotic and I gave up trying to have more positive thoughts. They just don't come anymore. Whenever I try, my mind always goes back to Changbin and that makes me frustrated.

I don't want to think about him anymore, but I can't stop thinking about him.

"Felix, please talk to me. You haven't been outside of this room for the past three days and the doctor said that you haven't been eating properly" Chan went on to say.

"Just leave me alone Chan. I don't want you here." I replied, laying back down in the bed, covering my body with the sheets and turning to face away from Chan. I knew my words hurt him, but right now I don't care.

I don't care about the world.

I don't care about other people.

I don't care about my friends.