My Screwed Up Life

My Screwed Up Life (Another one of those love stories)Ch.12

He smiled when he saw me looking at him.  I smiled back and took another sip of water trying to calm myself.  He finally made it to my side after what seemed like forever.  There was silence for a moment and it was very awkward.  I didn’t know what to say.  He broke the silence before I could even finish thinking.  

“About last night,”  he started and paused for  a moment.  “The thing that happened,”  he spoke again and then paused once again.  He looked at though to make I knew what he was talking about.  I blushed a little and nodded.  “I don’t know, well, I’m not sure... I don’t know what to say here,”  he said.  I know the feeling, trust me.

“It’s okay, I don’t even know why I did that.  Just... I guess maybe, I don’t know.  I have absolutely no idea why I did that.  I’m sorry,”  I told him.  He turned his head to me.

“Don’t be sorry, you don’t have to be sorry.  You definitely don’t have to be sorry.  It’s not that I didn’t like the kiss, because I did I definitely liked it, it’s just I don’t know what it means.  I’m confused by it all, you know,”  he said.  I nodded in understanding.  I blushed again and dropped my when I realized what he said.  He saw my blushing before I dropped my head.  “You blush a lot.  It’s cute,” he said, which, of course, made me blush even more.  I looked up at him and saw him smiling at me.  I smiled back at him. 

 He came closer and brought his hand up to my chin and made me look at him.  Slowly he brought himself closer.  His lips touched mine and formed a soft kiss.  It surprised me, but I kissed him back.  I moved myself so that I was sitting facing him and wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me.  He moved his hands to my waist pulling me closer to him if that was possible.  I was absolutely there was no more space between us and that we were the only things in the world that mattered.  

We stayed like that for a few minutes.  Until we heard someone ‘ahem’ and then we both reluctantly pulled away and looked to our right.  When I looked I saw some one I never thought I would see there.  I felt so bad at that moment and so the confused feelings came back.  Kaden stood there looking mortified by what he saw and next to him was Devon looking quite amused by Kaden’s reaction.  When I realized the compromising position that Blake and I were in the awkwardness set in.  I hated awkwardness, it was always just so, well for lack of a better word, awkward.  

“Kaden, Devon.  What are you doing here?”  I asked in attempt to get past the awkwardness.  I pushed Blake away and glared at a chuckling Devon.  See he thought this was hilarious because he knew my feeling for Kaden and the fact that he was here laughing his ass off doesn’t help at all.  

“We were going to Hannaford, and you have to go past your house to get there,”  said Kaden, in an extremely melancholy tone.  

“Yeah so we’re going to get going, talk to you later,”  Devon said, finally trying to help.  

“Okay, umm yeah, okay, uhh, bye I guess,”  I said still feeling a very awkward tension.  I watched them walk away and I saw Kaden look back.  I waved a little and he just turned away.  That made me feel even worse and even more confused.  I looked back to Blake unsure of what to do at this moment and by the looks of it so was he.  He had his hands shoved in his pockets and his head down and if it was up I’m sure his face would be just like mine, red as a tomato.  I had no idea if I could even move at that moment.  

“That was awkward,”  he said trying to break the silence.  I looked at him to see him looking at me.  I still had no idea what to do, or what to say.  “

Do you think we could try that again?”  he asked with a hopeful look in his eyes.  I answered him by grabbing the collar of his shirt and crashing my lips on his.  He was surprised, but kissed back immediately.  He put his hands on my waist again and my arms found there way around his neck again.  We we like that for a few more seconds before I pulled away.  

Blake’s POV

When Kaden and Devon showed up I had no idea what to do, so I just stayed there frozen like that.  I don’t know what made me kiss Jasey like that again.  I am so confused.  What’s wrong with me?  I have no idea what I’m doing or what I’m going to do.  It’s not like I can tell her now, might as well enjoy this right.  

“Kaden, Devon.  What are you doing here?” Jasey asked awkwardly.  She pushed me away from her.  I don’t blame her either, I would have done the same thing.  

“We were going to Hannaford, and you have to go past your house to get there,”  Kaden said in a tone of voice that was so sad.  

“Yeah so we’re going to get going, talk to you later,”  said Devon.  

“Okay, umm yeah, okay, uhh, bye I guess,” she said.  That was very awkward, I thought as the two boys walked away.  I put my hands in my pockets.  I saw Jasey wave a little so I looked over to them and saw Kaden turn his head away.  I looked back to Jasey and she looked so hurt.  I put my head down.  This is so awkward.  I looked up to see Jasey looking at me.  

“That was awkward,”  I told her trying to break the uncomfortable silence that was starting to take over.  

“Do you think we could try that again?”  I asked, once again having no idea what was wrong with me.  I shouldn’t be asking things like this.  She didn’t say anything.  She grabbed the collar of my shirt and brought her lips to mine.  I had to admit I was surprised, but I kissed back.  She put her arms around my neck again as I put my hands on her waist.  After a few more seconds like this, she pulled away.  I want so much to pull her back to me and never let go.  What am I saying, I don’t want that.  Or do I?  I am so confused.

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