Now That You're Gone [Hiatus]

Tzuyu/Sana's Diary

tzuyu

I am now hiding in my bedroom. people found out about me and the reporters here are now banging at my house door for answers.

my parents keep trying to lay them off my back and my brother almost punched someone when they called me a "coward because I could not stand up for my problems."

lots of things are happening.

but why do i still have hope?

that one day i will see her again? why do i want her to come knocking on my door and greeting me with a warm smile?

she's stuck in my mind and i can't seem to get her out of it. my parents are going to send me to my auntie's house to live with her instead.

she does not have any children so i wonder how this will go. 

i have seen her once but that was back when i was probably ten years old or something. she was hanging out with my mother and her friend.

there was a girl too.

but i can't recall her name.

she was the daughter of my auntie's friend. i think some trace of her name is left in my memory. oh, i got it, her name.

mei?

i think that was her name.

li mei. 

i don't recall anything about her looks but i do hope we get to hang out. i wonder what it will be like living with my aunty.

sana

i want to get outside and help look for her. who knows? what if she's hurt? what if she has to hide in fear because of the reporters?

aish, if only those stupid reporters would lay off. but, at the same time, we have to thank them for giving us clues on where tzuyu is.

for now, twice still has to go on performances without tzuyu which will sadden us all. i don't think we will have stage presence within us at all.

we all just want to find her.

after all, she is one of us. 

and it's all or nothing.

i don't care if they try to stop me, i will go and find her. and i will bring her back. but something has been confusing me all this time.

why am i missing her... differently?

it's not like "oh she's gone i miss her..."

it's like "my heart aches every time i think of her being out of my life." what is this feeling i'm receiving? i only have this feeling with dahyun.

wait...

it can't be.

no, this is wrong. i have dahyun. dahyun is my girlfriend. i love her. right? ugh, why am i questioning myself right now?

i have her and that's all that matters.

but why...

i have her but it still feels like a piece of my heart is missing.

tzuyu, are you the other half? 

a/n: double update because i'm in a good and inspired mood today!

love ya

-authornim