Now That You're Gone [Hiatus]

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~tzuyu~

mei and i have gotten very close. we hang out a lot and she just makes me enjoy myself. even on the saddest days, she is able to brighten them up.

i have to admit, i have been catching feelings for her. but i don't want to tell her yet because i am still unsure about these things that i am feeling.

i wonder how twice is doing. i haven't thought about us for a while. our songs. once. are they doing okay without me?

i'm guessing they are. they probably already forgotten about me by now. i'm just so happy that i was able to get away from that hellhole.

i am now a new person. a new me. a new tzuyu.

mei always takes me out on 'dates'. she calls it dates and i just let her because i genuinely love being in her company.

sometimes... i have thought about getting into contact with jyp again but it scares me because i won't know what would be coming afterward.

but one person always sticks to my mind no matter what and i can never get her out of my head. she just can't leave my mind.

sana.

she was my first crush. i loved her so much. maybe i still do. i do not want to cause myself any harm anymore.

i know that if i go back into twice again, the pain will return. and i can not risk that happening. i was already caught by people here once.

it can not happen again.

"tzuyu!" mei shouted. "y-yes?" i stuttered out. "you're spacing out again. but come on! we are here!" she said with a smile.

i got out and realized we were at the beach.

"uh... mei i can't swim." i told her. "oh that's okay! i'll teach you. you will be safe with me." she said. i smiled. 

she grabbed my hand and led me to the water. we entered the water and the waves were pushing against me.

mei held my waist and told me it would be okay.

we then heard a camera click. 

oh shit.

we turned behind us and saw a man taking a picture. "it-it really is you!" he said. mei and i looked at each other then ran to the bathroom.

~sana~

we got called down to the company headquarters again. i wonder what it is this time. it will probably be more 'we are trying our best to find her'.

goddammit.

i fucking hate this so much. why can't i go out there and look for her? why can't the group go out? 

nobody is even smiling anymore. we lost our happy and joyful vibe. we all look so glum and dull. our faces remain stoic even if something entertaining is happening.

we all sit down at the seats next to the table. a staff turned the projector on. we all let out a gasp of surprise.

"this was caught by a man in Taiwan. tzuyu was at the beach and is currently with this unknown woman. we are still looking for information about them." he informed us.

my heart skipped a beat. i could feel anger rushing through my veins. am i jealous?

ugh. i have to admit it at this point.

I AM IN LOVE WITH CHOU TZUYU.