Shawn and Andrea

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All I could ever think of was Iñaki's lips on mine even when it was Shawn I was kissing. I broke off the kiss and looked at Shawn whose face was filled with surprise.

I then looked at Iñaki whose forehead was scrunched up. I kind of regretted what I did.

"Tara na. We're going to be late for class." Inakbayan ako ni Shawn at tumungo na sa classroom namin.

"Shawn," tawag ko sa kanya. He then hummed in response. "I'm sorry for kissing you."

Huminto kami sa paglalakad at hinarap niya ako. Nakita kong nakangisi siya sa 'kin. Mas gumwapo siya lalo. Minsan lang siya ngumiti. This is a rare sight.

"Don't be sorry. I liked it."

Nag-init naman yung mga pisngi ko. I can't believe I'm doing this. I am such a horrible person.

Magkatabi kami ng upuan ni Shawn. Nagtaka naman si Francesca kasi usually nasa likod yung pwesto ni Shawn.

"You have some explaining to do, missy." bulong sa 'kin ni Francesca.

Shawn was leaning on me. Magkadikit yung mga braso namin. Ang dali-dali niyang maging komportable sa 'kin habang ako naiilang pa.

Ang samang pakinggan na ginagamit ko lang siya. I do hope someday makapagmove on na ako kay Iñaki at matutunan kong mahalin si Shawn.

"Gusto mo bang kumain sa labas mamaya?" bulong ni Shawn sa tenga ko.

Tatanggi na sana ako nang marealize ko na kung gusto kong makapagmove on, I should go out with him para makalimutan ko si Iñaki.

Makalimutan si Iñaki?

Really? Who am I kidding?

"Yeah. Sure." I said before turning my attention to the lecture.

Matapos yung lecture namin, kinaladkad ako ni Francesca palabas ng room namin. I told Shawn to just wait for me downstairs.

"Baklang 'to! Anong meron sa inyo ni Shawn? Ha? Sabi mo kakabreak niyo lang ni Iñaki kagabe? Eh ba't parang may namamagitan na sa inyo ni Shawn? Parang ang bilis naman ata?"

Parang nanay talaga 'tong si Francesca. Kaya ayun sinabi ko sa kanya ang lahat.

She then sighed. "No comment. It's your life. Ihahanda ko nalang ang atay ko in case may inuman session na maganap."

Bumaba na din ako para puntahan si Shawn. Nagulat ako nang may muntik na naman akong mabunggo pagkaliko ko.

"Ay sorry." sabi ko at nang inangat ko ang tingin ko--

Iñaki.

His cold eyes were staring down at me again. Like I was a nobody. Na parang hindi niya ako kilala. Naninikip na naman yung dibdib ko. My breaths were short. I want to get out of here. Parang anytime iiyak na naman ako.

Why did I have to love him so much na wala ng natira sa 'kin?

"You really had to kiss your new boyfriend in front of me, huh?"

Ba't siya galit? Siya nga may iba agad, e. Susumbatan ko na sana siya nang magsalita ulit siya.

"Oh look your boyfriend's coming." His voice was filled with sarcasm. Napalingon ako at nakita si Shawn na papalapit sa 'min. He had a passive look on his face.

I was frozen on my spot. I really need to move. I had a gut feeling that something bad is going to happen.

Shawn immediately grabbed my hand and said, "Tara na. May date pa tayo."

My heart was beating so fast. Siguro dahil sa kaba 'to. Nasobrahan na din ata ako ng kape. Napatingin naman ako kay Iñaki na nakatingin sa kamay namin ni Shawn bago tiningnan ng masama si Shawn.

Napatingin naman ako kay Shawn who was mirroring Iñaki's expression.

Fudge my life.

"Alis na tayo, Shawn." I said, tugging him away from Iñaki. Nakakaattract na kami ng maraming tao.

I let out a heavy sigh when we reached the parking lot. I looked at Shawn and I couldn't fathom what he was thinking.

"I know that you still love him. Alam kong matatagalan muna bago ka makapagmove on sa kanya." he said that made me look down. In times like this, gusto ko nalang magback out sa set up namin.

He held my hands and kissed my knuckles. And that ladies and gentlemen, made me blush.

"Pero handa akong maghintay. I will do everything just to make you forget about him. Darating din ang araw na ako din ang hahanap-hanapin mo, na ako ang magiging laman ng puso't isipan mo."

My throat went dry. This guy... He doesn't deserve this.

"Shawn... P-Parang ang selfish ko naman ata."

"I don't care. I'm willing to take a risk if it's you."

"What if 'di talaga ako makapagmove on? I don't want to hurt you."

He suddenly embraced me and it made my heart skip. He kissed the top of my head and whispered into my ear.

"Let's not worry about the future and focus on what's happening right now."

Gusto ko sanang tumutol pa pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I thought about what he said. Maybe someday matututunan ko din siyang mahalin.