Shawn and Andrea

4

I was drunk already.

Or was I?

I don't know. The world was just spinning around and my heart... hurt.

It felt heavy.

Tears started to flow from my eyes. I was just crying while I took another shot of vodka. I was thankful for Shawn's silence. I know he understands me.

I was about to down another shot when his hands stopped me. Kinuha niya ang baso ko at ininom niya.

I smiled at him. He just stared at me. His eyes were filled with pain. Why was it filled with so much... agony?

I stood up and straddled on his lap. Nagulat naman siya sa ginawa ko and I just laughed at him. He tried to push me away, but I remained sitted.

"Andrea." He warned. His voice was deep and it felt like he was uncomfortable already.

"Shawn." I replied, giggling.

"Get off before something bad happens. You're drunk." He tried to push me away again, but I just grabbed on his shoulder and stayed put.

"Are you sad?" I asked. He was taken aback at my question. He rested both of his hands on my waist.

"Yeah. Why do you ask?"

I pouted. Hinawakan ko ang magkabilang pisngi niya at nilapit ang mukha ko sa kanya.

"I don't want you to be sad because it's making me sad also."

He raised his hand and gently caressed my cheek while the other stayed on my waist, drawing circles on it.

"Kung ayaw mo akong nakikitang malungkot, then stop hurting yourself already."

"I'm trying, Shawn. But he's still here," I pointed at my chest. "I want to unlove him already. Please help me. Hmmm?"

He wrapped his arms around me as he buried his face on the crook of my neck. I chuckled at that. Nakikiliti kasi ako.

"I will do everything for you, baby. One day, gigising ka nalang at marerealize mo na you're deeply in love with me like how I am with you." He whispered on my ear that sent me shivers down my spine. My body suddenly felt hot.

"Kiss me, Shawn." I whispered back.

He then pulled away from the embrace with shock written on his face. "I would love to, but not when you're drunk. I want to kiss you when you're sober para 'di mo makalimutan."

I pouted again. "You don't like me ata e."

He chuckled. "I actually do, Andrea. A lot."

"No. You don't want to kiss me kasi e." I said, crossing my arms over my chest.

He just grinned at me. Ugh! "Come on. Ihahatid na kita sa inyo. You're drunk."

"See? Pinapauwi mo na ako. Ang panget ko siguro no? Kaya mo ako tinataboy and kaya ako iniwan ni Iñaki."

With those words, he remained still. His eyes were seriously looking at me. I just stared back at him.

"Trust me, Andrea. I want to kiss you senseless right now, but I respect--"

I cut him off with my lips. Feeling his soft lips with mine was pure bliss. I placed both of my hands on his cheeks to hold him still. I moved my lips on his and I heard him groan. I chuckled at his reaction. But he wasn't still moving.

His hands were pressing hardly on my waist. I slid my tongue on his lips and that earned me another groan from him. I deepened the kiss, but he wasn't still opening his mouth. He remained still. He didn't kiss me back.

I pulled away to get me some air. I looked at him and saw that he was also gasping for air.

"Shawn, help me forget about this pain even just for tonight huh?"

"Andrea, you're drunk. Let's stop--"

"You told me that you're willing to be used by me. I need you right now, Shawn."

I didn't miss the pain that crossed on his face. He then immediately covered it with his usual poker face.

I am such a cruel person for doing this. I should take it back. Siguro nga ay dapat nalang akong umuwi and deal with this pain on my own and not use Shawn.

"Sorry. I'll just--" akmang tatayo na ako nang bigla niyang hatakin ang batok ko at inangkin ang aking mga labi.

Fuck.

He was kissing me passionately and deeply. I then replied with the same intensity his kiss was giving me. I let out a moan when he opened my mouth using his tongue. Both of our tongues touched and fought for dominance. I grabbed a fistful of his hair and pulled him even closer to me. He tilted his head to give me more access. Our kiss was getting heated and I didn't care kung anong sunod na mangyayari.

It felt cold when Shawn left my lips as he layed me down on the couch. Pumaibabaw siya sa 'kin at ibinalik ang kanyang mga labi sa akin. I encircled my arms around his neck and just pulled him closer to me. He nipped and bit my lower lip and slid his tongue on my mouth. His hands were all over my body. He then let out a groan when I bit his lower lip. Parang nanggigigil ang paghalik ni Shawn sa 'kin. I found it hot and I could feel his soldier getting hard down there and that made me moan at that thought.

He left my lips to travel down to my neck. He planted kisses on my neck, nipping and sucking it. Paniguradong may marka na 'yan mamaya. His lips travelled north. He bit my earlobe and whispered, "You're mine, baby. Only mine."

I moaned again when he started kissing my neck down to my chest... Fuck.

"Shawn."

He continued on planting kisses on my chest as he tried to unbutton my blouse. He then threw it away and I was now left with my bra. Shawn stared at me and I got conscious with my body.

"Beautiful. So fucking beautiful." He said before crashing his lips on mine. He parted my legs and was now positioned between them. I could feel his hard soldier on my belly.

I wanted to be on top kaya itinulak ko siya dahilan para mapahiga siya sa couch. I straddled him. His eyes were dark and filled with desire. The look on his face made me so wet down there.

I slowly unbuttoned his shirt as I left kisses on his chest down to his belly. I heard a moan from him and that made me smile. I threw away his shirt and went back on kissing his lips. The kiss was now hot and wanting. His hands were on my nape, pulling me to him, deepening the kiss.

I then left his lips and went down to his neck. I sucked it, making sure to mark him. Shawn is mine. I don't care if I'm being selfish, but he is mine.

"Andrea..." he moaned.

I hummed in response. I continued on kissing his neck.

"Let's stop hangga't kaya ko pa." His breathing was ragged. He was having a hard time controlling himself.

I just hummed in response as I was busy planting kissed on his neck.

Shawn grabbed both of my shoulders and pushed me away from him carefully. He sat down and heaved a sigh.

"Let's get you home."

By now, nahimasmasan ako sa pinag-gagagawa ko. I could feel my cheeks heat up. I wanted to head bang myself on the wall.

I am so stupid!

Shawn suddenly chuckled that made me look at him.

"Ang cute mo."

And that didn't help my cheeks from cooling down. Alam kong pulang-pula na ako ngayon!

Damn it!

I covered my face with my hands and I heard Shawn's deep chuckle again. I felt his arms encircling my waist as he pulled me into a hug.

"Nasira ko yung blouse mo. Kukuha lang ang ako ng T-shirt para maisuot mo."

My face heated up again when I remembered I was just in my bra!

"I loved the kiss, but I'd love it more if you were sober. I hope you don't forget about this."