Shawn and Andrea

5

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I was greeted with a freaking headache when I woke up. Hindi na talaga ako iinom! Napatingin ako sa suot ko at nakitang suot ko pa yung uniform ko.

Yuck!

Biglang bumukas yung pinto at ni-on pa yung light. Napapikit nalang ako.

Ugh!

"My eyes! Paki-off nga!" I covered my eyes with the pillows around me.

"Wakey-wakey! Kain na, ate!"

Ba't ba napakatinis ng boses ng kapatid ko?!

"Shut up, Kennie!"

"Inom pa more! Lagot ka kay tatay!"

Nanlaki yung mga mata ko sa narinig ko. I'm a dead woman.

"Shit."

"Hala! Bad words! Nay! Nag-badwords si ate!"

Double dead.

Pinaulanan muna ako ng sermon ng mga magulang ko bago kami kumain ng breakfast. Pangisi-ngisi pa 'tong si Kennie, e. Kung 'di lang 'to bata--

"Nay, oh! Ang sama ng tingin ni ate sa 'kin!"

Sumbungera talaga ang batang 'to! Kainis!

Matapos akong sermunan na naman for the second time ay pumasok na ako sa kwarto. Kinuha ko yung phone ko at nakitang nagtext si Shawn.

"Good morning!"

Oh my...

Bigla kong naalala ang mga nangyari kagabi.

Fudgee bar!

Napasigaw nalang ako sa hiya. Lupa! Kainin mo ako! Wala na akong mukhang ihaharap sa kanya!

My phone beeped again and I saw Shawn's name on it.

Ayoko na!

"How are you feeling?"

'Di ko nalang siya nireplyan kasi hiyang-hiya na ako. Parang ayaw ko tuloy pumasok ngayon--

Shit. May quiz pa pala kami! Lagot ako nito!

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I let out a heavy sigh as I pass my paper in front. Ayun. Na-mental block ako. Inom pa more!

"Wala na. Bagsak ako dun." sabi ko.

"Same." sagot naman ni Francesca at napabuntong hininga na naman kaming dalawa.

"Andrea."

Shit.

Nanigas ako sa kinauupuan ko. I've been avoiding Shawn since I entered the room. 'Di ko nga lang pinapahalata na iniiwasan ko siya. Nahihiya kasi ako!

I looked at him and gave him an uneasy smile. "Oh?"

"Can we talk?"

"We're already talking." I joked to lighten up the mood. Ang seryoso niya kasi and it was kind of uncomfortable.

He just looked at me with those serious, brown eyes. And that made me think that shit was going to get serious.

Tumayo na ako at naglakad papunta sa labas ng room. Buti nalang at walang tao dito sa labas.

"Why are you ignoring me?"

I was avoiding his gaze and I felt my face burning up. Ugh! Eto na naman!

"I am not ignoring you. And please don't look at me." I muttered.

He chuckled as he take a step forward. "Why?"

I covered my face with my hands. "Nahihiya ako..."

I felt his arms snaking around my waist as he pulled me close to him. Yep. Isa na akong malaking kamatis!

He removed my hands and now I was looking at him. Exposed. I just stopped breathing.

His warm brown eyes were so hypnotizing. I was enveloped with comfort. I never want this moment to end. Everything was almost perfect.

Almost.

Memories of yesterday filled me. It was like a broken record that played over and over again. I really thought I was over Iñaki, but I was wrong. I still love him. Thoughts of him proposing with another girl breaks me. Ako dapat yun. We already planned the future together. Ako dapat at hindi ang babaeng yun.

Shawn noticed my discomfort. Na-guilty ako nang makita kong nabalot ng kalungkutan ang kanyang mga mata.

He hugged me. Tight. And that made me cry. I have mixed emotions right now. Para akong mababaliw.

I was broken because of Iñaki and full of guilt because of Shawn.

"Sorry. Lagi nalang ako umiiyak." sambit ko.

He caressed my hair. "Everything's going to be okay. Trust me."

"I don't want to love him anymore. Napapagod na ako, Shawn." pag-aamin ko.

I should at least tell this to him. Pero alam kong alam niya na mahal ko pa si Iñaki.

"That's why I'm here, Andrea." He pulled away for a bit and grabbed my chin for me to look up at him straight into his eyes.

"Let me be your strength."

Oh, Shawn. What did I do to deserve this? I can feel his sincerity and it was breaking me even more. I don't want to hurt this pure soul.

"'Di ka ba napapagod sa 'kin?"

"Hindi."

"Why?"

"Because you're my strength. Imposibleng mapagod ako."

"I'm starting to like you, Shawn. You are a good person. You don't deserve this kind of treatment. You deserve someone who will give you all the love. You deserve so much more... You don't deserve me."

He doesn't deserve a half baked love. He deserved the whole fucking cake with icing on it and all.

He gave me a smile which didn't reach his eyes. And that hurt my heart. Ayoko na.

"Knowing that you're starting to like me is enough to keep me going. You're going to get through this with me."

"Why are you doing this?"

"Matagal na kitang gusto, Andrea."

Natigilan naman ako sa sinabi niya. Parang ayaw kong maniwala. 'Di naman niya ako pinapansin dati.

"Really? 'Di naman halata."

He sighed as he tucked in some strands of my hair behind my ear. He then cupped my cheek, holding my face into place.

"I respect your relationship so, I backed off kaya 'di mo ako napapansin. Nangako ako sa sarili ko na sa oras na mag-break kayo, 'di ako magdadalawang-isip na lapitan ka."

I was speechless. My heart was beating so fast. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya, unsure of what I was going to say.

Kaya pala minsan nahuhuli ko siyang nakatingin sa 'kin. I just shrugged it off kasi akala ko hindi ako yung tinititigan niya. And he was always a gentleman to me kahit noon pa.

Nakapagdesisyon na ako. Iñaki's going to get married. Kung masaya siya ay dapat maging masaya na din ako. Hindi dapat ako nagmumukmok habang siya ay nagpapakasaya.

I deserve to be happy.

Tumingkayad ako at hinalikan yung pisngi niya saka siya niyakap. Naramdaman kong nanigas siya sa kinatatayuan niya. Pero agad naman niya akong niyakap pabalik.

"I'm ready to move on with you, Shawn."

Shawn is worth the risk.