Your Love Is My Drug (A Lilo fan fic)

Wide Awake

Louis’s POV

I sat in the hospital waiting area in complete agony. No one was allowed to see him. For all I know, he could be dead, and they could be bringing him down into the morgue at this very moment. If he was dead, I don’t think I can go on. I always thought about growing old with Liam, and dying in each other’s arms like the end of The Notebook. I let the dark thoughts consume me as I sat with my legs close to me. My eyes stung, from crying for the past two hours. All 5 of us sat in silence, waiting for the doctor to come in. I looked at Rebekah who was crying into Harry’s arms. His eyes were puffy rom crying. I brought my eyes to see Niall. He was silent, his face was blank, and he was staring into space. My heart squeezed as I looked at Zayn. His hair was flattened, his eyes had dark circles under his eyes and there was a line of red from crying. He stared off into space as he let tears fall. He looked terrible.

I let my eyes fall back on the floor, the one spot that seemed to entertain me. I saw movement from the corner of my eye, and I realized that Rebekah was standing over me, she tried to smile, but I could tell she couldn’t. Her cheeks were stained with tears and make up. She pulled me in for a hug, and I cried even harder.

“I’m so scared. What if he’s gone?” I choked out. She rubbed my back and cried with me.

“He’ll be fine. I just know.” She said as she hugged me tighter. I felt a strong hand on my shoulder. I turned around to see Harry. I hugged him, really hugged him, letting a small amount of tears come pouring out of my eyes.

“She’s right. He’ll be fine.” He whispered I let him go and I eyed Zayn. I walked over to him. He seemed to be taking this pretty bad.

“Hey Zayn, how you holding up?” I asked rubbing his should.

“Liam may be dead! How do you think I feel?” he snapped letting tears fall from his eyes. I pulled him into a hug, and he sobbed in my chest. I let a tear slip out from my eye.

I saw the doctor come over to us.

“Who is responsible for Mr. Payne?” he asked. I stood up.

“I’m his, um, boyfriend.” I hesitated. I didn’t know where we stood.

“Follow me.” he led me to a room. I didn’t look around; I just stared at the doctor.

“We tried everything we could.” He began. And that’s how it usually stared. I they tell you how much they tried, and then they say the patient is dead. “But, he’s in a coma. We have no idea when he could come out. It could be a long while.”

I sighed. At least he wasn’t dead, yet. “Will he come out?” I braced myself for an answer.

“We aren’t sure. Most likely no, with the damage he went through, it’s lucky that he even survived. If he did come out, he could have serious brain damage. We don’t know how much he will remember, but if he is to show signs of coming out, you will immediately know.” He informed me.

“Can I stay with him, tonight?” I choked out. “Can I see him?”

“Of course. Right behind the curtain.” He motioned toward the blue curtain. I heard the beeping and I knew the man I loved was right behind that curtain. “I leave you two alone.” I watched as he left the room.

I walked towards the curtain. I slowly slid the curtain to expose Liam. I stared as I saw tubes connected to him. Silent tears fell from my eyes.

“Liam.” The room fell silent again as I whispered his name. I grabbed his hand and squeezed. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I was just insecure. I heard Zayn talking to you, then when you came back with Zayn, I just automatically assumed. I’m so sorry. If I didn’t upset you, you wouldn’t be here. I hate myself. If you don’t make it, you’ll see me there with you. I don’t know how I’ll go on without you.” I sighed. “I wish you could talk to me.”