Chapter 3- Escaping the Love
I got to the pier pretty quickly, I hoped out of my car and grabbed my coat. Its sort of cold outside since it is only 7:30 in the morning. I walked to the end of the pier and still hadn’t seen Ricky yet. I looked out into the water and just thought. So many things were running through my mind I couldn’t keep track.
I could feel him standing next to me, “Where the hell have you been?” I said a little pissed off that I had to wait fifteen minutes for him.
“You really expect me to show up on time especially when its early in the morning.” he said smirking to himself. I hate that smirk it screams ‘I’m cocky, so screw me!’ its so stupid how so many girls fall for it. Its even more stupid how I fell for that same smirk many moons ago.
“What did that text mean?” I asked ignoring his stupid, cocky, sarcastic attitude. Its too early in the morning, and I have yet to had any caffeine at all today. I was certainly in no mood to deal with his attitude.
“What text?” he asked spinning around so he was leaning against the railing that kept us from falling in the water.
“Don’t play stupid. You know what I’m talking about! The text where you say ‘Does Taylor know?’” I said quoting his text message. His very strange text message. I’m so over this conversation now. I hadn’t looked over at him yet so when I finally looked over at him I noticed he small bags under his dark brown eyes. His dark brown hair is a little messy but probably because I pulled him out of bed early this morning.
“Does Taylor know about you and I? Does he know you were cheating on him with me? Does he know that you were with me before you even got with him?” he asked all at once. God! What is this an interrogation?!
“No he doesn’t! And it better stay that way, Ricky!” I said standing in front of him with my arms crossed over my chest. He stood up straight and stood the same pose as I.
“Why can’t he know? You afraid he’ll leave you at the alter?” he asked smirking at himself. I am going to kill, a slow painful death. I will hold him over the edge the railing by his feet until I feel like dropping him. Okay I won’t do that but I’ll something simple that I can pull off and make it hurt.
“Because I don’t want him to know! And he won’t leave me because he’s not like you! He is far from you. In fact he is better than you!” I yelled at him. His stance had changed from relaxed and cocky to uptight and tense the moment those hateful, awful, spiteful words left my mouth.
“God Ricky! Stop trying to ruin my life! Taylor is my way out of this damn mess! I could have a life that revolved around me loving Taylor! Not me trying sleep with every guy I meet to fill some stupid urge!” I screamed running my fingers through my brown hair. I didn’t bother curling it today because I didn’t have time and because I would be on road most of the time so…
“You don’t love him! I know you Meredith! You and I are the same person, we don’t love anyone not even ourselves!” he shouted back. He took a deep breath then ran his hand over a face a couple times, he sighed then looked over at me.
“Please Ricky just don’t saying anything. I am asking you nicely and begging you. Please keep what happened between us quiet.” I said running my fingers through my hair. I walked past him to lean against the railing.
“Give me one reason why I shouldn’t tell him?” he asked leaning against the railing on his left side so he was facing me.
“He loves me Ricky, he loves me for me. He doesn’t care about what I was doing before I meet him. He wants kids with me. Me! Dark and twisty me!” I said pleading him wanting him to believe me that what I was saying is true!
