miracleboy / tendou satori

+ t w e n t y o n e

ushiwacant:
hey

ushiwacant:
about the suicide thing you mentioned last morning

ushiwacant:
what happened

ushiwacant:
was that a random thought

ushiwacant:
or did someone u kno died of suicide

miracleboy:
u probably don't know bc u not into kpop but

miracleboy:
there was a kpop star named jonghyun who committed suicide last 2017

miracleboy:
and i wasn't completely healed from that yet

miracleboy:
then just this october, another kpop star, sulli, took her life

miracleboy:
the month after, one of her friends committed suicide as well

miracleboy:
and as i was grieving for their lives, so as the whole kpop fandoms

miracleboy:
and at some point i felt the warmth of their comforting words

miracleboy:
all the "we're here if you need us"

miracleboy:
"you're never alone"

miracleboy:
tons of "if you need help, we're one beep away"

miracleboy:
and the like

miracleboy:
but then i realized they were the same people who throw hate comments, jokes on other people's flaws, judge other fans, and pushes people to the edge

miracleboy:
u get my point here wakatosh?

miracleboy:
everything is fake

miracleboy:
all the things people tell you should be analyzed first

miracleboy:
bc not all time, what people say are true

miracleboy:
sometimes they just say it because the issue is too serious to not seem to care

miracleboy:
they comfort you because they feel obligated to

miracleboy:
and the worst part? you felt like your struggles mattered and that they cared

miracleboy:
it was all too surreal and you believed it