(IF YOU VOTE I WILL UPDATE QUICKER SIMPLY BECAUSE I'M THIRSTY)
I got up and ready from school the next day earlier than I expected,I spent the majority of last night going over everything,I didn't cry as much as I thought I would and I didn't freak out.
I just sat in my room away from everyone and everything sniffling away any tears that dared to escape my eyes.
I thought I had no one to blame but myself but really Harry caused that situation and for his own good no one else's however if I would of stopped being selfish none of this wouldn't happen.
I picked up my phone to try and text Luke but I didn't know what I could say,I had clearly done enough damage and I didn't want to make anything worse.
"what's up" I turned round in the kitchen chair to see Josh stood with a piece of toast in his hand;uniform messy but he still looked better than I did with no makeup on,bags under my eyes.I basically looked like trash.
"huh" I simply responded,not really being in the mood to talk.
"you have been staring at that bowl of cereal in front of you for the past ten minuets,I would of asked for it but you seem a bit off" Josh replied gesturing to the bowl of Cheerios in front of me.
I pushed the bowl away from me slightly scrunching my nose.
"I guess i'm not hungry" I lied,I was hungry but I was just in one of those moods where all I could think about were everything that had gone wrong and everything that could go wrong I don't even think I have enough brain capacity left to think about picking up a spoon.
"right anyway we gotta catch the bus so hurry up" Josh replied brushing off my morbid tone and face whilst slinging his beat up backpack onto his shoulders.
The bus journey was as about as bleak as I felt and it wasn't much of a surprise that Harry wasn't here this morning,he was hiding either from me or Luke,I mean he really had nothing to be afraid of but he was still a coward.
I felt like I wanted to hide also but how could it,my life had turned into a never ending cycle of disappointment,I had found friends and two boys which actually like me which never happened back in America but I blew it.
It was the end of February now and it was still freezing,I had been here just a bit over a month as I came about a week after Christmas but I was still no where used to the temperatures of this place,it's probably because its right on the coast.
Today was no exception to the weather as whenever I breathed out it looked like a cloud had formed in front of my lips and my fingers felt like they were frozen in place to the point where it was slightly painful to move them.
I took my normal route to my form room dodging dodging the overly excited year seven's who were skidding around of the icy pavement and pulling my crappy school blazer as tight as I could to keep in the tiny amount of body heat I had left.
As soon as I stepped inside the building I saw Abby,Alice and Liv,I felt quite guilty that I hadn't been spending so much time with them but hopefully they would let it slide and not mention it.
I put on the best semi-smile I could and walked up to them but I was only greeted by two glares and Liv who wouldn't even make eye contact with me.
"hi" I said dashing my eyesight from each one of them but none of them even flinched,Abby just rolled her eyes.
It was very clear to me that they were in a mood with me and I knew exactly why but I just didn't want to say it.
"Luke told us what happened" Abby was the first one to speak up which didn't surprise me from her attitude towards me.
