Love of My Life

Now or Never

Rose POV

It is easier said than done to completely end my obsession with V. 

I haven't had any serious romantic relationships with anyone since never, so  I kind of live in my head, fantasizing on how it would be like to be with someone I really like.

I trained for a couple of years before becoming an idol, and now we're busy solidifying BlackPink's place in pop music worldwide. Having any type of romantic relationship with anyone might be detrimental to the future of BlackPink.  Hence, what happened to Jennie.  We don't talk about it, because I know she had to make a hard decision on choosing her career over any romantic possibilities.

Therefore, I will continue to live in my head, because I don't need to be in the same predicament.  I'll continue to like V from afar and be happy with following his contents in social media. He sure has a lot!

"Rose, gaja!" Jisoo was calling me from the living room, excited about our outing tonight to see Billie Ellish in concert.  I'm happy for the distraction and I'm also excited.  After all the grueling days preparing for our comeback, we finally have a chance to let ourselves loosen a bit and have a relaxing evening together.

" Wait a bit!" As I slipped on a YSL ruffled babydoll dress in leopard and put on a matching tortoiseshell amber strappy sandal.  It's a bit revealing than my usual get-up, but what the heck I'm 23, and I gotta live my life at least fashion wise! I grabbed my favorite long tan coat and headed for the door.

Taehyung POV

Jungkook is jumping like a kid in a candy store, excited  to see Billie Ellish in concert. I've seen this maknae grow before my eyes.  I'm proud of how he has matured and still kept a bit of childishness in him.  I put my arm around his shoulder and gave him a quick tug.  He didn't even notice because he was so busy filming everything.

We have 15 more minutes before the concert start, and everyone is taking selfies and wefies except for Suga and I.  Suga is such a savage hyung.  He cooks for us and  silently cares about every member of the group.  But, he doesn't want to participate with most of our stupidities, especially our pranks, so we stay the fu*k out of his way per his own request.   I think he is the most introspective member of our group and a real musical genius. I admire him a lot, but I don't tell him that because, to quote him, he doesn't like sappy sh*t.

I hear a commotion to my right, and I saw her with the rest of her group walking towards our direction.  It was a real treat to see her, as I didn't think she would be in a Billie Ellish concert.  It goes to show how little I know her even if she's all over social media.

I'm trying to think of how I'm going to greet her.  I really shouldn't just bow to her and ignore her for the rest of the concert just like I did the last time.  I'm ashamed of how abruptly I left last time without having the decency to say a proper goodbye.  I didn't want to embarrass myself in front of her.  My pants were getting too tight during the show, especially when I caught her staring hard at me.  I had to run out of there fast to take the coldest shower.

Before I know it, Rose was standing next to me.  I caught myself trying to devour her familiar natural scent, fresh and sweet.  Surprisingly, once I got a whiff of her intoxicating smell, my nervousness went away. She's like an addiction, tempting me to stay by her side as long and as close as possible.

"Annyeonghaseyo." I greeted her and made a bow. 

"Hi!" She greeted me back, gave me the sweetest smile, and took a bow. "This is gonna be such an epic concert.  I'm so excited!" I caught a flash of what she is wearing under her coat, and I got hysterically hot and bothered.  But this time, I smiled to myself and decided to  enjoy the moment.  It is now or never.

The concert started and I found myself singing, jumping, and having a great time with her.  We are surrounded by a lot of people including members of our group doing the same thing we are doing, and yet I feel Rose and I are by ourselves.  Suspended in time, in our own mikrokosmos. 

The sky is pitch black and all I could see is the light from the stage and from all the cellphones in the stadium.  The sky is devoid of stars, as if the universe is telling me that the only star I need is the one next to me.  I looked at her.  As if she understood what I'm feeling at the moment, she stared back and smiled. But, she didn't bestow her usual beaming carefree smile, she gave me this nervous smile full of uncertainty.