Love of My Life

Nothing Like Us

I'm enjoying this borrowed time I have with Taehyung.   I know in a few hours he will be on a flight to South America for the next stop of BTS' world tour promoting their chart-topping 7 album.  At the same time,  I will meet the rest of Blackpink in Brussels to kick off our European tour.

We will be apart again, but the moments I created with him for the past two days will give me comfort when the loneliness sets in.  

Loneliness is our constant companion even when we have so many people surrounding us and caring about what we do.  Taehyung understands more than anyone that this is the compromise that we must shoulder to continue to pursue our passion for music.   

I think this clear understanding of fame, embracing both the good and the bad, is the unspoken bond between us that allows us to cherish the stolen moments we have with each other, however short and inconsistent.  We have an unspoken understanding that we would rather have what we have now than not have each other at all.

The time Taehyung and I  have spent together, I embraced the many facets of his personality.  There is his cute and goofy side that he shows to his fans in front of the camera.  Then, there is his serious and shy side that he doesn't show to many.  Some might even think that he is an emotional rollercoaster, constantly needing reassurance from the rest of BTS.   

Taehyung has a creative mind that at times makes him wear his emotions on his sleeves.  Some might misconstrue those emotions to neediness, narcissism, or immaturity.  I beg to differ. Taehyung is a loyal person who is protective of  those that are close to him.  He is kind and regards his parents and friends with utmost love and respect.  He is constantly pursuing the best version of himself which can be hard on him.

We are still sitting on the terrace of the Four Seasons Hotel in New York enjoying our breakfast.  The view of Central Park on a clear, sunny day is the exact contradiction of what Taehyung and I will wrestle with when we're continents apart.

"I have a confession. I'm planning to binge watch all your performance videos from New Year's Eve of last year and all your Vlive broadcast to date whenever I can't talk to you for the next month." I said half-jokingly while putting half of my pancake on his plate.

"I can't say I will do the same because I think I've watched all your videos in youtube whenever I can't sleep at night."  He casually revealed. "At least twice."  

He put half of his omelette on my plate and added, "Oddly, I didn't have any problems sleeping last night.  The moment you put your arm around me, I slept like a baby."

Teasing him, I uttered, "Simple, I'll send  you my life size plush toy, so you could sleep like a baby every night."

"And you could send me an interesting selfie every night.  That would really help my condition." He smiled mischievously.

" I bet it would." I gave him a kiss on the cheek and stood up.  I put my arms up while relishing the view of Central Park from our terrace. 

 I felt Taehyung behind me, arms around my waist, and his chin to my right shoulder.  "I have a week break in July.  I want to go to Maldives with you.  Can you clear your schedule, then?"

"I think I can." I gave him another kiss on his left cheek.  That is all the permission he needed to kiss me passionately.