Love of My Life

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Author's note: Thank you to all who had been reading and following the chapters as inspiration hits me. I hope you're enjoying this as much as I enjoy writing it. I'm so excited that one idea from this book came into fruition: BTS having a concert in Barcelona. Congrats ARMY in Barcelona! V singing "Someone You Loved" in V Live is a gift from BTS Gods, things have finally come into full circle for Taerose fans.

I know everyone is awaiting BTS new album. In the meantime, I hope everyone got to see their mind-boggling performance of Black Swan in James Corden show. 🥰. Now back to the book. . .

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We got back home yesterday to take a break from our world tour. I'm exhausted mentally trying to keep my emotions at bay and not alarm the rest of the group with what had happened to Rose and I. My relationship issues shouldn't be a distraction for the rest of BTS.

I'm relieved that ever since I ended things with Rose, there has been no threats to her safety via text or mail. I'm still working with the authorities to try to catch this sasaeng.

I had given my best acting performance that dreadful night. I figured that if she hated me, it will be easier for her to move on from a heartbreak.

The day after she left my apartment was even more difficult to bear. I knew that she was going to be in the same show. I purposely sat with Joy from Red Velvet who I used to date. I knew Rose would pass by the waiting room before going on stage so I timed it well. I know I'm a coward, but I can't put our love above her life.

I was content that she didn't look defeated when she went on stage. She held her head high and her face was strong and defiant. I watched her performed on the side of the stage.

I was taken aback that she didn't mentioned before that she was performing her solo track that day for the first time. I was mesmerized by her playing the guitar and hypnotized by the melancholy in her voice.

I, for one, am back to my old self. Sleepless nights means I have to keep my mind busy. Vlive and the ARMY had been my constant companion. TaeTae FM is truly more for my healing than the ARMY's.

How do I manage my addiction of Rose? I watched the livestream of Blackpink's concert in Osaka. I saw Rose singing on stage with tears coming down her cheeks, and it broke me.I wanted to fly to her and kiss the tears away from her cheeks.

Instead, I went running inside Hannam the Hill while listening to Rose singing on my airpods. Because this is who I am, a coward.