Danplan fluff

New years (stephen x jay)

Stephens POV:
I blush and shove my face deep into my big blue pillow. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" I scream into it not makeing much noise due to my thick pillow muffling it. why do I do this to myself? Why do I let my stone cold heart melt for him? Why? What do I see in him?

I sigh and lay back so that I'm looking at the celing. I stare up at the yellow sticky note that I stuck up there a while ago. It says "does it matter in the end?" I sigh and shut my eyes as I think about the question

Does it matter in the end? Well, yes. Yes it does. Of course I like jay and that matters because if I act upon my stupid feelings it will effect our future. Wether in a positive or negative way.

I swallow the knot in my throat as I choke back the tears. It matters, but it doesn't. I sigh and sit up as I rub my puffy eyes. I know it's 2 in the after noon but I'm still tired. Mentally, that is. Physically I'm fine but these thoughts and decisions pin point me at all times

I get out of bed and stretch, smiling at the satisfying pops from my back. I slide off my sweats and put on my basket ball shorts. I feel warm. I walk out of my room makeing sure to shut the door behind me

I walk into the bathroom and take a comb and brush my soft curls. I smile as my purple curls sit comfortably on my head and look at the shaven sides. My hair looks nice. What a relief, I wanna look good for tonight's New Years party

I lean over the sink and brush my teeth with my pink toothbrush. My other toothbrush was knocked into the toilet by none other than dan the man of course. Hosuh said that he had plenty of extras and gave this cute girly toothbrush. I sighed and thanked him. A toothbrush is a toothbrush

I spit out the tooth paste and smile weakly to examine my teeth. "Good enough" I shrug. I take a bit of Hosuhs concealer that he leaves behind the mirror and put a tad bit under my eyes to hide the heavy bags. My overthinking is interfearing with my sleep and I don't like it one bit

I sigh and shake my head. I sniff and notice that there's dirty clothes on the floor infront of the toilet. I groan as I recognize the clothing "Of course" I say trying to act all annoyed but in the inside I'm smiling. He acts so childish it's cute. But, seriously tho, how can someone so smart forget to pick up his dirty laundry after taking a shower? Jay, that's who

I bend over and pick up the pile and hug it close to my body makeing sure to not drop any. I walk into our laundry room and throw the clothes on top of the overflowing bucket of dirty clothes. I live with Daniel hosuh and jay. We decided to move in together after we graduated high school. It's been great actually.

We live in a one floor, three room, 2 bathroom house with a living room and kitchen being in the same room. It's not bad. Quite roomy and very comfortable. We can be in the same room and not feel too packed. It's a bit pricey but it sure is worth it

I walk out of the laundry room and into the kitchen were I see Daniel. I see him rummaging through the fridge and lean on the counter "whatcha got there dan?" I ask with a wide smile plastered on my face

He flinches. Guess he didn't hear me come in. He quickly puts whatever's in his hand back into the fridge and shuts the door. His checks are puffed out and he keeps his mouth shut. He swallows whatever's in his mouth and he pants. "Nothing" He says as he wipes his mouth with his sleeve but I notice the white streak on his sleeve

I throw my head back as I laugh "seriously? Whipped cream?" I giggle. He blushes and looks away "cmon it's good" I walk up and poke his tummy "you gotta work out man" dan laughs and rolls his eyes

He crosses his arms over his chest and looks into my eyes with a cocky expression "fine whatever. I'll add it to my New Years resolution" he says. I cringe as I am reminded that it's New Years.

Dan looks up and leans back on the wall behind him keeping his arms crossed " so, you gonna do it?" He asks. I know what he's referring to. The other day I thought I was home alone and I began talking to myself out loud. I do this a lot which is why I like to go out on long walks alone. It help me clear my mind if I hear my thoughts out loud. Anyways, you can already imagine that Daniel poked his head in and said "I'm still here ya know" I remember it clearly. His smug expression as he tried to hold back his laughter. My face went red and I chased him around the whole house with Hosuhs drawing pen. I pinned him down and made him swear on his brothers life that he wouldn't tell jay or anyone

I sigh and look away. "I-I dunno..." I say. Daniel shrugs and I hear the toaster ding. He walks over to it and takes out two pop tarts. He smiles and gives one to me. I gladly take it and take a bite on the warm goodness. I should eat these more often

Daniel walks up to me and smiles. "I think you should. The timeing will be perfect. When you tell him, and if he feels the same way, the fire works will pop in the night sky making everything romantic and it could even lead to.... ya know," he says and takes out his two index fingers as he holds onto his pop tart with him mouth and pushes them together "boop" he says

I feel my face heat up as I realize what he's indicating. No way could I kiss jay. I mean like.... I want too but I dunno. I look into his eyes. I didn't wanna feel this way but I do. I feel the warm tears sting my eyes. "And if he dosent feel the same way?" I ask in a whisper as my voice cracks in the end

Daniel drops his pop tart and looks up at me with sorrowful eyes. He gasps and hugs me tightly. "Holy shit this is for real" dan whispers. I giggle with a choked cry and wipe my tears away with a sniff. He pulls away and smiles up at me with sad eyes. I wipe my red cheeks and look down. "Of course. It always had been" I say and he nods. "Of course" he whispers

He still doesn't answer my question. I didn't expect him too. It's not like he knows what I should do if he rejects me. I push aside the crap and joke with him as hosuh walks into the room. He smiles as he sees me with pop tarts "really? Not even a healthy lunch?" He asks as he pats his damp hair with the white towel that rests on his small shoulders. I shake my head "nope. This is breakfast"

he gasps "you just woke up? Stephen, you need a better sleeping schedule" he nags like a mom. I laugh "and you? You can stay up for 3 days and then sleep for 2. You have your issues and I have mine" I say as I point and him and then at myself. He sighs in defeat and nods "alright but I'm makeing you something to eat" I shrug and walk out of the kitchen and into my room

As I walk there I bump into jay stepping out of his room as he shuts his door behind him. He turns to me and smiles "morning Stephen" he says. I feel my heart pound but I keep my sly smirk on. "You mean afternoon" I say and he gasps "really? What time is it?" He asks

I shrug. "dunno. Lemme check" I say as I open my door and step in letting jay to step in aswell. I check my phone and it says that it's currently 2:38. "2:38" I repeat. He nods his head. "Cool cool" He says and a silence falls upon us

We're quite for a bit before he asks a question "you goin to that New Years party downtown?" He asks. I shrug "are you?" I ask and face him. He smiles and nods "hell yeah. An excuse to get wasted without being judged" he says

I smile bubbly "alright then, I'll go too" I say catching myself spilling my feelings and cool down. Jay smiles and nods "alright. Imma go bother the two other side characters. Catch ya later" he tells me as he steps out of my room

I smile and lift my hand as saying good bye "yeah.... see ya later" I whisper to myself. Why do I have to be so complicated? I slump and look down. I realize that my eyes get blurry again. I shut my eyes and sigh and I lay on my bed and look up at my celeing. I stare at the yellow sticky note

Does it matter in the end? I take a deep shakey breath as I let the tears roll down the sides of my face as they fall into my ears feeling quite uncomfortable but I'm too exhausted to sit up or wipe them away. "Yes" I whisper out to myself.

I will release part two later tonight. Hopefully it'll be the last part. Happy New Years friends. Enjoy the rest of the day and till later tonight. Stay cool and stay wierd. Bye for now :)