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Go away! (Stephen x Jay) part one

You'll probably hate my guts after this but, hey, we'll see how things turn out. Enjoy the shit!

Jays POV:
Sigh. It's been so quiet lately. Daniels at school and hosuh is at some cafe working on the animation. He said he likes to work out of the house

I'm watching some tv waiting for Stephen to come out of his room and come join me but he seems to still be alseep.

Time flies by. It's 9am then 10 am then 11 then 12 all the way to one pm. I start to get worried. Stephen never slept in this late. Is he ok? Is he just that tired? Did he sneak out last night? Is he out killing some stranger again? Is he doing something else?

My curiosity finally gets the best of me and I end up walking up to Stephens room to find out for my self. I take a deep breath and decide to knock on the door

Knock knock

I hear shuffling of blankets and then hear movement. I stand completely still and tense up a bit out of pure instinct. I hear the door knob jiggle and then the door opens wide

There infront of me is my good ol' pal Stephen who looks like he's tired as hell. Hes slouching as he looks up at me with tired eyes and he smiles "hey u piece of shit" I smile back crossing my arms "well that's no way to greet ur friend" I say with a chuckle

He yawns and laughs and motions me to come in. I step inside and he walks back to his bed sitting criss cross apple sauce style. He slouches and looks at me as I sit in the desk chair "so, what do u want" he says as he scratches his tummy lifting his shirt up a little

I try not to look as I gather my words "I dunno. It's 1 and u seemed to take a while to get out of ur room" I say making it sound like no big deal. Stephen cups his face with his hands and says "awwww was someone getting worried about me?" He teases as he tilts his head to the side

I try not to blush as I look to the side avoiding eye contact "n-no. I was just..... u want breakfast?" I ask facing him and changing the subject. He giggles his cute bubbly laugh and nods and we both walk out of his room.

I decide to cook pancakes as Stephen just sits in the chair in the island and watches me cook. I try not to get nervous cuz I feel so anxious of him just watching me but I (surprisingly) happen to remain calm

After I'm done I set the plates down on the table and Stephen sits on the table ready to dig in but I stop him "aren't u gonna wash ur hands?" I ask jokeingly

He looks up at me and his expression seems kinda nervouse but chill "what. Why? He asks pulling his hands under the table. I sigh and place a hand on my hip acting all sassy "cuz ur gonna eat. Plus I need to grab the fork and knifes. Just wash ur hands dude" I say as I walk over to the drawer. Stephen clears his throat and nods getting up and walking to the sink

( A/N btw the drawer to get the forks and knifes are right next to the kitchen sink. Ok bye)

I open the drawer to choose the forks when I see Stephen make movement beside me. Guess he is washing his hands. He's standing to my left as he rolls up his sleeves and belongs to wash his hands. I giggle and glance over cuz he seems kinda shaky

I glance over to look at his hands and my heart drops and what I see. No way those are... maybe I'm just overthinking it... I shake my head and decide that it's none of my business. I grab the forks and knives and go sit down

Stephen soon follows and sits to my left. "Man I'm hungry!" He says he excitedly rubs his hands licking his lips like a little kid. Usually I would laugh at his reaction but I'm too nervous at what I had seen of his left wrist. Marks. But I try to convince myself 'no, no jay. No way that's that. Stephens such a happy guy who enjoys life and shit. Stephen would never do that..... right?'

I guess Stephen notices that I'm lost in my thoughts cuz he puts his hand up to my face and snaps "hello. Earth to jay? U in there?" He says snapping a few more times. I snap back to reality and giggle trying to act like everything's fine and Stephen smiles beginning to eat

I eat but I've somehow lost my appetite. I shake my head 'shut up jay! Ur overthinking it! And even if u were right it's none of ur business!' I say to myself as I make myself swallow the food.

After eating Stephen taps his tummy as he looks satisfied "man jay that was good! Thanks dude" he says all smiley as he jokeingly punches my arm. I force out a laugh and keep looking down

I guess Stephen has noticed cuz he drops his laughing face and looks at me with worry "jay... u ok?" He asks placing a hand on my shoulder

I slowly look up at him and close my eyes and nod. He lets go of my shoulder and asks "u sure?" I look back down at my lap and glance up at him "Stephen, mind showing me ur arm?" I ask out of the blue

Stephens eyes widen slightly as he sits on his hands "what. W-why?" He asks avoiding eye contact. I know that move. He always avoids eye contact is he's nervous. "Just curious" I say sitting up straighter

He looks around and starts to panic "Hey don't u wanna watch a mov-" "show me ur arm Stephen!" A say loudly cutting him off. That startled him cuz he flinched but he lowers his head and rolls up his sleeves and holds his hands up letting me see clearly the damage he's done

Both of his wrists had a few scars on each. Dark and purple and bumpy. I stare in shock as my eyes widen. Stephen keeps hanging his head low in shame. Why would he do this? I've never thought of him being depressed. Why?

I soften my expression and look up at him "Stephen" I say gently touching so tenderly on the scars "why would u do this?" I ask seriously concerned

He keeps his head low and just shrugs. But I don't accept. There has to be a reason "Stephen, that's not it dude. I know u. U never do anything without reason" I say placing a hand on his shoulder shaking him lightly. He lets his hands fall but shrugs again

"Stephen. Tell me. Please. I need to know, I'm ur frie-" I push once more but get cut off as he suddenly stands up keeping his head down "THATS THE THING! Ur only my friend!" He says finally looking up at me as I sit there in shock. I see Stephen with a frustrated expression as streams on tears run down his face "ur only my friend.... why would I ever dream of u being anything else" he says as his voice cracks breaking my heart

"Stephen" I gasp out extending my arm to each for him but he slaps it away and runs to his room in a hurry sobbing as he leaves me in a pure state of shock. I just sit there staring at nothing as my head runs a little movie of the events that had just happened.

I place a hand over my mouth as I squeeze my shirt on the area on where my heart should be "w-what was that" I ask in disbelief

Things I know for sure
1. Stephen has cut himself
2. Stephen might be depressed
3. Stephen just cried infront of me
4. He's upset that we're only friends
5. He's in his room
6. I just messed up big time

Hello my friends. Cream here! Sorry that I had to break this one up into two parts. It's just that that helps me think of how to make it end and make it enjoyable to read. Sorry if this one was a bit sad.... I suck at writing happy story's lol. Hope u enjoyed tho. I promise I'll make the second part as happy as I can make it. Till next time my wierdos. Stay safe and stay wierd. Bye!