Can Love happen Twice ? ( On Hold )

Chapter 15

Love is when the other person's happiness is more important than your own...

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"So my sunshine now has a boyfriend...more like soon to be dead boyfriend" my brother said while raising his eyebrow.

"Jay please he is very good and we both like each other" I shot back.

"Tori you are too naive to understand all this..you don't know how boys are. They just want sex from girls"

"Gross jay...please don't talk about 'all that'.." I grimaced.

Trust me when I say you do not want to listen to 'the talk' from your elder brothers mouth. It's just gross. I know he is over protective and all but still...Urghh..!!

"He is not like that....he loves me a lot and I love him" I stated proudly.

"How many months have you'll known each other?" My brother asked.

"1month" I replied

"What ???" My brother literally screamed "just one month...don't tell me. And you say you'll already love each other...that's impossible. What do you know about love sunshine" he fumed.

"I'm not a kid anymore Jay...stop treating me like one" I spat back.

"See sunshine I know you are eighteen now and you think you are all grown up but for me you will always be my baby girl" his eyes softened.

"I know you care about me. But I have never felt this way about anyone." I replied "cole is different...he treats me differently...he makes me feel loved"

"Baby girl it's only because you have never dated anyone before...you have never had a boyfriend before and in this age you do feel attracted to a boy that does not mean it is love...you'll barely know each other" he stated calmly.

I knew that he was some what right. We barely know each other. How could I say that I love him. May be I liked him alott. May be I'm just infatuated. But I do know that this is not just a random infatuation. I don't know why I am confusing myself. Talking with my brother has confused me so much but it has made me see my situation with cole in a different light. I know he is right but I won't admit it to him. I have to talk to cole about it. I cannot keep him in darkness. I don't know why I'm feeling guilty, bad. But I cannot do this to him. What if he also does not love me.? What if even he is just infatuated? My heart clenched at the thought. It was so wrong on my part to tell him that I don't love him but like him and expect him to love me. I never knew there was such a big difference between love and like until now. Sure I have feelings towards cole. I was not able to understand my feelings towards him.I have never had a boyfriend before. Talking to cole confused me so much that I thought I love him... Talking to my brother has opened my eye. Love is something totally different. What I feel is not love.I have to do something about it. I have to talk to Cole real soon.

My brothers voice bought me back to the present" has he tried to do any funny business with you ? Because if he has he is not going to see tomorrows sunshine"

"Wh...what ?? N...No...we have just kissed and nothing else" I blurted out.

'Double toast cheese sandwiches did I just tell my brother I have kissed Cole '
"What??? He has kissed you. I'm not going to leave him. He forced himself on you...am I right? Ofcource he has manipulated you...oh my baby girl don't worry. just break up with him.He will learn his..."

"Stop Jay...he did not manipulate me. He did not force me nor am I breaking up with him" I turned bright red.

Trust me it is damn awkward to try to explain to your brother that you wanted to be kissed in subtle words.