Can Love happen Twice ? ( On Hold )

Not Giving Up -Chapter 29

Love is just Love, it can never be explained...!!!💞
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After sitting near the door crying for hours I decided to head to my room. My mind was a mess from so many betrayals. I didn't know what was right and what was wrong. I stood in front of the mirror in my room and stared at a girl with bloodshot eyes who looked so broken. She didn't have the spark left in grey eyes. The once lively eyes were now dull and lifeless.

I don't know whose betrayal hurt more, My Mother's - Who left me for a casual fling Or My Bestfriend's - Who had A thing for My Boyfriend.

Both of them didn't think about me. They both wanted their happiness. It's not wrong to want to be happy but My own mother didn't think about me and my best friend wanted to be happy with My Boyfriend.

Then there is my Boyfriend. He may hate me now for what I did. He told me everything truthfully or so I think and what did I do ? I didn't even react infront of him. I just left. Why did I leave ? Oh yeah because I was scared. Scared that he will also leave me if he finds happiness somewhere else because lets face it, who would want a girl who has so much baggage? Yeah right No one. Not even Cole.

Thinking about him hurts my heart. Is it over between us ?

I already have faced two betrayals from the most important people in my life. What if Cole betrays me ? Will I be able to bare it ? No I won't be able to bare it. Only thinking about it makes me sick.

I have to stay away from him to protect my already broken heart because I am falling, falling hard for Cole and I'm scared that when I fall he won't be there to catch me.

Then there is his fangirls. Majority of them are so good and classy. They can offer him what he wants. They don't carry the baggages that I do. They are better than me in all the aspects.

I may have reacted as if I don't care about all those hate notes but I did read most of them and to be honest it did hurt knowing that I am not good for Cole. I am too fat for him maybe or maybe I'm just not good looking. Maybe I did have a crooked nose and big eyes which resembled a patato.

I stared at my big grey eyes in the mirror. Yes they are right I do have a patato for eyes and then I checked my nose. Yes it was definitely slightly crooked. I stared at my reflection. Why don't I have a flat stomach ? I sucked in a breath trying to tuck my tummy in but it was of no use. It still looked like I was pregnant. Why are my arms so fat ? Does my butt look fat too ? I turned around and yes that was fat too. I did look fat and horrible. How did I not notice this before ? I always thought I was okay as I am but no I did look bad and I was very fat.

I didn't deserve Cole. He deserves someone who is beautiful and not someone like me.

I don't know for how long I stood infront of the mirror and kept staring at my reflection and kept telling myself that I was ugly and Cole deserved someone better.

"Tori are you in there ?" My brother asked from the other side of the door.

"Yes Jay I'm in." I answered.

He came in with a huge smile plastered on his face. "Look what I got you sunshine."

Grinning he passed me the box of donuts. A smile lit up on my face. But as soon as the thought of being fat came on my mind I frowned and felt my heart sink. "Are you going to keep staring at them or are you going to give me some ?" Jay teased.

"I don't want to eat it. You can have them." Even I could hear the sadness in my tone even though I tried to keep it at bay.

"Has the world come to an end because Victoria Moretz is refusing a donut." He teased me even further.