Mommy?

23

The two return home with all of lukes stuff and tension between them, but holding each other tightly.

"I want you to hit me back." Luke mutters as they lay in bed late at night a couple days later. Delilah frowns.

"No, Luke, that's not gonna solve anything."

"It doesn't have to be punching me. Like a spanking or something? Not sexual. Just a really harsh punishment." Lukes almost pleading. Delilah sighs again. He wants the nagging pull at his heart and the self depreciating words telling him he's a horrible piece of shit just like his dad to go away. Being punished is the only way he can think to help.

"Luke I don't think-"

"I feel so shitty- ow-" he cuts himself off as Delilah pinches his arm. "I feel horrible about it and I don't wanna be like my dad and I feel like I'll feel less guilty if I get punished. And you might feel better-" Delilah strongly disagrees. She does not think punishing Luke will make her feel better. She's not sure what will.

"I don't wanna hurt you Luke, I'm not about revenge or anything like that." She explains in a firm tone.

"Well, its not revenge, it's a justified punishment for extreme misbehavior. I mean, I was little when I did it, if I did anything else naughty whether I was little or not you'd punish me, right?" Luke tries to reason his argument and make his point.

"This is different, babe." The girl shakes her head, letting lukes hair. He kind of hates the affection she gives him now because he feels like he deserves the opposite of it.

"Please? I feel horrible about it and I deserve to be punished, please." He whines.

"Fine. Tomorrow. Go to sleep, Luke." She relents. Luke smiles but he feels nerves flood him at knowing what's awaiting him tomorrow but not knowing the details, he dreads it even though he asked for it.

"Thankyou. Love you. Goodnight." He mumbles. Delilah says it back.

When Luke wakes up he remembers today he'll be punished and he feels anxiety overwhelm him, frowning then when he smells bacon.

He stands and goes to the kitchen where Delilah smiles as she sees him and then she puts some bacon on a plate and hands it to him, along with pancakes.

"Aren't you going to-"

"Yes, but not as soon as you wake up. After breakfast." She hums. Luke would rather get it over with, but he nods and eats slowly to stall it out longer, even though he knows he asked for it and he still wants it.

When he finishes he puts his plate in the sink and waits for Delilah- who may have also been stalling- to finish as well before following her to her room, holding her hand.

Luke feels himself slipping into headspace and begins crying silently, it's not til his mommy starts to lead him over the bed that he starts sobbing.

"I'm scawed! Don't wanna!" Delilah sighs and smiles sadly, petting lukes hair and making him look into her eyes.

"Luke baby, you asked for this and you know you deserve it. Be a big boy." Luke gulps and nods, fighting to a half headspace so he's a bit braver and bending over the bed after letting Delilah take his jeans down.

Delilah seems hesitant to start and for some reason it makes him feel guiltier but eventually he hears her grabbing something and he takes a deep breath as he hears it rustle and then it hits him and he cries out at the snap of the leather against his boxer covered bottom but it's nothing compared to how much it hurt when he didn't have her and how guilty he feels so he doesn't beg as she continues to land hits with the belt across his bum, only apologizes and does his best not to kick his legs.

Delilah does not feel right spanking Luke for this. This feels like a relationship issue and not a submissive/dominant issue and she would rather talk it out but this is what Luke wants and she loves him and doesn't want him to feel miserable emotionally so she's doing her best to be what he needs.

Luke feels like maybe the guilt is melting away slowly and does his best not to kick his legs and to feel every ounce of pain he's given and take it like a man, but he's sobbing his guts out and spewing apologies like prayers. He refuses to beg because he knows he deserves every single hit and worse.

Delilah doesn't give him nearly as much as he feels he deserves- although he's heavily sobbing and his ass is colored in red stripes and feels like fire and yet somehow hasn't healed the tearing in his chest of guilt- before it's over and she's setting the belt down and taking his jeans off more and grabbing him some pajama pants she had had ready on the bed.

"I'm sorry... I love you." Luke whimpers as she helps him sit up and hugs him. "It hurts." He whimpers.

"I love you too, i know babyboy, do you want some cream?" Luke shakes his head.

"My heart still hurts, I still feel guilty." He explains and Delilah sighs and kisses his head.

"Getting a spanking isn't going to fix everything sweetheart. You don't need to feel so upset anymore though. You were little and having a fit, you weren't acting in an abusive way, you were just being little and getting too worked up. It isnt okay but it does not make you anything like your dad, you are nothing like him. You're sweet and loving and you'd never hurt anyone on purpose, and o forgive you now, okay? So you can forgive yourself and let it go." Delilah speaks in a soothing voice while Luke cries, feeling some relief at her reassurance.

"I love you." He mumbles again.

"I love you too babyboy."

I know some people wanted me to drag it out longer but I didn't have the energy to write so much emotional turmoil and if I didn't do something like this it probably would've been another six months til I actually updated. Hope you all like it! Lemme know what should happen next!