Hopeless Romantic

**BONUS**

09/07/2017

I am pissed beyond pissed too pissed.
Im on the bus listening to my fav songs but i aint singing bc im too busy balling up my fist
I knew it all along but for some time you had me tricked
And to think i was defending you in your absence

what a joke

I was hung over you, Head over heels
I loved our bond and how you made me feel
I used to brag about you and never could get mad at you
but now I cant fuckin stand you

I write when I feel things, these things we call emotions
It got me sick , sick of everything, i need some type of potion
Im changing and im growing
it aint gon always be pretty but im releasing the demon ive been holding
Dont forget that you were chosen
but i chose wrong bc you aint golden
hell nah
but see these emotions are overflowing
Im spilling them on paper looking like a body of an ocean
Frustration and Anger in my colon
Im ready to fight at the moment

but nah i aint gon do that

See i couldve told you bout yourself
thats what i do now
I shouldve but what wouldve been the point if you wouldve lied anyhow
Sad part is when we fell off i stayed down
never had you looking like a clown
but i guess im the last laugh now
No fuck that, never been no clown
yeah my snap was about you, what you gon do now?

You trippin if you think im stupid idk what you sippin
Just know i been peeped, but i never thought about dipping
I never been the type to leave, im on a mission
My mission was to make you forget your past and give you something different
You don't want it thats cool
I was still A fool for you
but you dont know you have a good thing until its gone
I used to try to fight for us but you kept tellin me to move on
I didnt want to move on
I wanted you because what we had was so natural, so beautiful
But maybe i was too good to you
You said you wouldnt leave but here i am starting over again
Blaming myself for not being cautious with my heart again
I never been the type to pretend
and I never thought we would end
but here i am..

See, if i asked you about what i saw
would you tell the truth?
See,how would you feel if i told you the information that I knew?
Would you say that im assuming like you always do?
Or would you tell me what i wanna hear cuz I want you to?
Dont lie to me, just tell the truth

Or Am I trippin ?....

Every time i try to put you on the pedestal you prove me wrong
I guess thats why we were stuck for so long
Im still blinded by the fact that you left but I try to stay strong
I cant help that I miss your side because it is home, it is where I belong
So tell me what to do now since you're gone....