I Let The Road Decide

prologue

When she was seventeen she got married to the love of her life who was amazing to her but he had a rocky past. She still was with him through those times which made her hurt sometimes but she knew she had to be with him. After a few weeks she was now part of his motorcycle club which they called her, his old lady which she didn't mind but she knew her parents would hate her if they knew that she would be in a club. But after a few months of being in the club she and her husband had to take care of some business with a rival club. While they were taking there was a dispute between him and the other leader, they were throwing punches and she got in the middle of it. She breaks them apart but the leader pulled out his weapon and she heard the gun go off but she got pushed out the way. When she looked back she seen her husband in shock and fall to the ground she raced to be by his side he said, " I love you and I will always look after you, never forget that I'm always with you in your heart." He started to choke and look into the sky and she said, " I know and it's ok, you can fly now be free." After he took his last breath she started to cry and felt so empty inside and after a minute of crying she stopped and she looked dead herself. She got up and realized she needed to get out of there, she ran to her bike and drove off, she went back to the club's house. She called a meeting and the members came and she told them what happened which they believed her. They consulted her and she thanked them for that but she left and went to their house where she wanted to be left alone for awhile. After being home she decided to go to bed and the next day she woke up and felt really sick, she instantly went to the bathroom and threw up. After that she had to get some things at the store and while she was doing that she thought it wouldn't hurt to take a pregnancy test even though it would probably be negative. After buying  her stuff she went home and went straight to the bathroom to take the pregnancy test. After taking the test she waited while sitting on the bed and two minutes went by she looked at it and it was positive, she was in shock and she started to cry. She didn't know how to take care of a child nor did she have the place or the money to. She knew she had to give up her child to her parents, after a few minutes she gets a call from the funeral place and the wanted her to come down there to discuss the arrangements. She went to the funeral home and she told them that she wanted the funeral to be at the club where he feels at home and wanted the his coffin to be really black. They said that is ok but they were wondering is he going to be riding in a herse and she took a minute and she told them no and that the club would be riding his coffin to the cemetery. They told that is fine and that the club paid for the expenses, she knew her heart was in so much pain after discussing about laying his body to rest but she knew it had to be done. After a few weeks, it was time for the funeral and she dressed in her leather jacket that he got for her and her black leather pants with the heels he loved on her and his belt that he gave to her. She knew that she would have to speak at the funeral but she was fine with it. Everyone was at the club including the club members families and the paid the respects to him and she didn't want the coffin so it was closed. They grieved for her and she wanted to see his coffin, she walked to the coffin and place her right hand on it and rubbed her thumb back and forth twice and her eyes started the tear up so she looked up and and smiled and said, " I love you and so does your child." Then she kissed the top of his coffin and a tear ran down her face. Then she said to the members that it was time to ride him to rest, they all took a nod and went to carry the coffin they went out first and then she walked behind them and then got on her bike while they put his coffin on the trailer. They started their motorcycles and rode to the cemetery, which she was feeling the breeze go through her hair and thinking of the good times with him. When they got to the cemetery they members carried his coffin and put it in the ground. Then she stood over his coffin and she said, " My husband and the father of my child was a great leader for the club and he was so caring. He wanted all of his friends and members to be happy and not mad so he would do anything for them. As some of you know he was very smart when it came to compromising. But he never knew that so many people loved him for himself but now he knows. Now we have to see him fly away to heaven where he will be looking over us. But now my love you can fly home and be free of pain and suffer and be happy." The tears ran down her face when she picked up a handle full of dirt and and threw it on his coffin then walked away and started her bike and she rode off. She went home and cried and cried till she fell asleep.
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After nine months of being pregnant her baby was born. It was a baby boy that looked exactly like his father, she named him Jax Willow Reaper. She named that because her husband last name was Willow and hers was Reaper. She was in love with him but after three days of spending in the hospital and having time with him she drove to her parents house during the night. She gave Jax to her parents and giving them a box saying Jax . Then she put two pictures of one of her and one of his father, then she cried and gave him a kiss on the forehead. Then she got off the steps and walked back to her car and drove off and not looking back, when she got home she locked up everything and grabbed her gun, jacket, and some money. Then she got on her motorcycle and started it up and took off riding the road where she felt at peace with herself.