I Let The Road Decide

chapter 2

Jax's pov:

It was great living with my grand parents they always gave what I wanted and always made me happy and I was happy to live with them. Everyday I wondered why my parents gave me to them but my grand parents told me that my mother wanted me to have a better life than the one she was living. They showed me pictures of what my mother looked like and that they didn't have any pictures of my father. They wouldn't even tell me who my father was or even tell me why he gave me up, they would always blow it off and tell me how much they love me.

Today is my birthday and I was super excited to get my birthday presents and see my friends from school. When I woke up, I went downstairs to the kitchen to get breakfast but when I went by my grand parents bedroom. I looked through the crack of the door and my grandma had a box and looking at my grandpa. They were talking about the box and how they are gonna give it to me and how confused or scared I could be. I thought it's me getting an airplane ticket to Rome cause there is so much history and cool stuff about Rome so I was super excited now. Well after eating breakfast I went back to my room to get dressed for my birthday party, my grand parents told me to wear this which had my favorite bow tie with my favorite suit. After getting on my suit and my bow tie I went downstairs and went to the living room where my grand parents were sitting and look at me and smiled and said, "Happy birthday Jax, are you ready to see your birthday party?" I said, " Please grandma and grandpa." They both look at each other and then at me and then my grandma put her hands over my eyes which I didn't peak, then got leaded out outside on the porch. She took her hands off my eyes and I opened it had my friends, a dancefloor, a bouncy house and a petting zoo. I had a smile and i turned back and gave my grandparents a hug and said, " Thank you, thank you." They smiled and said, " Your welcome, now go have fun." I had so much fun, my friends and I went to the petting zoo first and got to pet a zebra, a lion, and a lot of other animals too. Then we went to the bouncy house and jumped for a while, then last but not least we went to the dance floor and danced for a very long time. Then we went to the table where I blew out my candles wishing to find or see my mother, then we eat my birthday cake and opened up gifts. After my birthday party I had over a hundred new toys to play with which I was happy but it was time to go to sleep. Before I got my PJs on my grandparents came in and my grandpa said, "Jax could we talk to you." I said, " Yes grandma and grandpa what do you need to talk to me about." My grandma had something behind her back and pulled it from behind which I look and seen it was the box they were talking about this morning. It had my full name in cursive, my grandparents and I sat down on my couch I had in my room, my grandma gave me the box. She said, " Sweety, this box is for you from someone that we do not know, it gave us instructions to wait for your ninth birthday and so we did but today you get to open it." The my grandpa said, " We are gonna go now but we wanted you to open it without us in your room. Goodnight Jax we love you and Happy birthday kiddo." I smiled and said, "Goodnight grandma and grandpa and I love you to and thank you." They smiled and left, before I opened the box I look at it thought it's a secret mission, so I opened it and it had two envelopes. I opened the one that said read first, and it said,

" Dear Jax my son,
       
       You are probably wondering what this letter is and who wrote it, well this is your mother writing it. I am so truly sorry for not being a part of your life, it hurts my heart that I am not, but there is not a damn day were I don't love you and miss you. I remember finding out that I was pregnant with you, I was so nervous and scared cause I was gonna be myself rasing a child in a world with killing and running away from my problems instead of facing them. One thing that I was certain and that was not giving you up for adoption and letting be in that ruthless system, that's why I gave you to my parents. When I gave birth to you, you were so little and beautiful, you looked like your father even though you had my eyes. I was full of happy emotions when I held you in my arms, I was also crying cause I just gave birth to my little Jax who had a smile that just melted your hearts. While we were staying at the hospital I remember feeding you and you holding my finger with your little hand and after that I always loved putting you to sleep while you were in my hand and laying on my chest and feeling your little hear beat. After being in the hospital I knew I had to give you to my parents so your could have a happy life instead of always running from my mistakes and problems I caused. I remember you being in your car seat and knocking on my parents mansion's door, they opened the door and I said, " Please, please take care of my child and make sure he knows how much I love him, you tell him that everyday and that his father would be proud of who is. Tell him when he understands that I did this for a good reason which one day he will find out from me soon and here this box which you guys will give him on his tenth birthday no sooner. Do you guys understand?" They looked at me and shook there heads and said," Of course honey and we will make sure he knows you love him and we will make sure he knows that his father is happy of him and we will take care of him we promise." I smiled with tears running down my face and I remember taking one step and turing back and giving you a kiss on the forehead and saying, " I love you unconditionally and I'm so sorry I have to do this to you." Then I walked back to my car while crying and driving off, I was so mad at myself and thinking it was the best decision for him and I did it out of love. Son I know you might understand and if you don't it's ok if you don't cause I will tell you why one day when you find me. Jax I'm so sorry for leaving you im  so sorry and I hope one day you will forgive me and we can talk about this. 
               Love your mother"

While I was reading I still didn't understand but I knew she loved me. Then I opened the second envelope that said pictures and I held the photos in my hand and the first photo was my mom and father together by two bikes and I turned the photo around and it said, " Logan and Willow Reaper on their wedding/ coronation to the club. I now what my father looked like and my mom was right I look like him except for they eyes. I then look at the other and it was me when I was baby and my mom holding me while I was asleep and her smiling at the camera and I look at her wrist and and it hand my name in cursive with blue ink. So I knew that was a key of how knowing who my mother was. Then I put the pictures down and thought to myself I'm gonna go find her. So I grabbed a few clothes to put in my backpack and grabbed the letter and pictures and put it into the front pocket. I put on a black shirt with some black pants and black boots with my black leather jacket. Then I grabbed my money that was in a bag saying emergency and grabbing my credit card and putting it in my backpack. Then I went out of my room closing the door quietly and walking passed their bedroom till I heard, " I'm glad we got to hear from our daughter where are you.... oh your in Whitefish, Montana.... We love u to and we will, bye and be safe." Then I ran downstairs and went out threw the front and seen a our landscaper getting into his truck, I run into his truck and he look at me and said," What are you doing kiddo?" I said, " Going to look for my mother in Whitefish, Montana, do you think you can take me to a bus stop and buy me a ticket which I have the money for if you just do it for me?" He look at me and said, " I will do it but only one condition, if you keep it a secret that I helped you so I don't get in trouble?" I said, " Deal." He started the pickup and drove off my grandparents property and straight for the town and then barley out of town he pulls into the bus stop. We both get out and said to the person behind the desk, I would like to buy a ticket to Whitefish, Montana please." The person said behind the desk," To Whitefish, Montana, that will be 150 please." I pulled out my money Wich now is still had 950 left, I gave the money to the landscaper and he gave it to the person and that person said, " Here is your one way ticket to Whitefish, Montana, have a nice travel." He nodded and gave it to me and then I pulled something out my backpack and gave it to my landscaper and said, give this letter that I wrote to my grandparents saying you found it in the shed." He said, " Ok I will, and be safe while you find your mother." I said, " Ok I will, goodbye now." He waved at me and left, I went on the bus and gave my ticket to the bus driver and sat in the back of the bus. Now I knew this was gonna be a long bus drive I mine as well get some sleep.