face to face || b.e

thirteen

kasier

i'm currently on my way to billies, i'd been texting her all day with no response and i was getting worried

billie always texts me back

what if she's with someone else, i felt my anxiety begin to take over

i felt more anxious with every passing second in the uber

once i made it to her apartment i used the spare key to open the door, the apartment was dead silent

i went up to her room but didn't see her, only an open balcony

i stepped onto the balcony to see billie there on the ledge with tears streaming down her face, looking down

i gasped and grabbed her arm ' billie w-what are you doing ' i said

' kasier, please go ' she mumbled

' no, come back up here please ' my eyes watered

she didn't respond but continued to cry so i pulled her over myself and carried her to her bed, closing the balcony door on the way

once we laid down i cuddled her and wiped her tears

' billie what's wrong ' i spoke as a few tears had fallen down my cheek

' i had a dream that i- ' she choked out

' baby slow down it's okay ' i rubbed her back as i still had her in my embrace

' i had a dream the i jumped off the golden bridge, a-and nobody did anything, it was like i was invisible ' she sobbed

i hugged her, i could only feel hurt for her

' but i saw them standing right there, i though they would care, and when i fell i tried to scream for help but my head was u-underwater ' she said

' baby, they aren't real, because i and so many of your friends, family, and fans would care ' i said

' and the media , they talk so bad about me, call me weak, say this and that even tho it isn't true, i'm so tired of it, it makes me feel so ugly and less of myself ' she sniffed

' baby, as long as i'm here no one can hurt you ' i kissed her head

' if i could change the way that you see yourself , you wouldn't wonder why they don't deserve you bil, you really wouldn't ' i wiped her tears once more

' i love you kasier, i really do ' she said

' i love you more billie ' i kissed her lips and within a few minutes she was asleep