face to face || b.e

twenty

billie

white. i seen all white

i covered my eyes ' dude where am i? ' i groaned

' you're in heaven ms. o'connell ' a loud voice spoke

i looked up and seen the man upstairs, god himself. that's mad cool

' why am i here, i killed myself ' i asked

' do you know what you did down there, you changed so many lives, and i think you deserve a spot up here. plus i'm a huge fan' he smiled at the end

' i don't deserve a spot here! i hurt all of those people ' i shouted. my voice echoing

' you were hurting, billie. it's okay to lose yourself child, i know you didn't mean to hurt them ' he spoke

' can i go back? ' i sighed

' im afraid i cannot send you back my child, it is far too late ' he shook his head

' please, i know you have some way to get me back. i need to heal what i have broken ' i looked down

' very well, i have a way. but it will take time, until then you will relax ' he spoke finally before he disappeared

i wonder if there's anyone else here ..

i look over and see nothing, no one. just the soft clouds and sun shining through them

i wish i'd never done this. i sat and closed my eyes, i miss my life down there.

kasier

i sat on my couch watching whatever was on the tv while ryland ate his breakfast

i'm trying my best to forget about billie so i can take care of my son, though it's hard i can get through it

i want to be the best mother, because i never had a mother growing up

both of my patents passed in a car accident that i survived. most traumatizing moment of my life

but i want to straight up be the best for ryland because god knows jahseh is so head over heels for jen that he doesn't care much for ry

i remember the night i told jahseh about ryland. he so happy, now that he's together with jen ryland gets no love. but of course i let ry see his father, it's only right.

' mama, up! ' he giggled

i picked him up from his high chair and kissed his chubby cheeks

2 hours later

i'd gotten ry to sleep and was scrolling through social media when i heard a sudden knock on my window

i inched towards my window, my breath hitched as i slowly pulled up the blinds to reveal

billie?