face to face || b.e

sixteen

billie

' billie eilish's ex girlfriend spotted with xxxtentacion at the grove, in los angeles ' i read

how could jah betray me like this? he's like a big brother to me and he knows how much she means to me

a tear rolled down my cheek as i through my head back in frustration

kasier

i cried silently into my pillow, i'm missing billie like crazy but i can't let her know that

i looked at jahseh and smiled slightly

he's the sweetest, but i can't be with him, i don't want to break his heart, he means a lot to me

i wrapped my arms around him, he doesn't deserve this, he doesn't deserve me

he shuffled a little and his eyes fluttered open, his brown eyes so beautiful and bright

glistening if you ask me

' why are you crying pretty girl? ' he questioned with a small frown on his face

i sniffed and wiped my face ' it's nothing jahseh, i'm just stressed '

he placed his soft hand on my cheek ' i'm sorry kasier, i really am, i don't know what billie was thinking, i know it's stressful '

my lips trembled and i buried my head into his chest to cry ' jahseh i just don't understand '

' listen k, i know it's painful but you have got to get through it, if she wanted you as bad as she says she does then she would have made sure to keep you  ' he cuddled me

' your right ' my lips trembled ' i just wish it didn't happen the way it did '

' i love you kasier, even if you don't love me back the same ' he sighed

' i do love you jahseh, i just need to get over her, it's obvious she doesn't want me ' i said

jahseh wiped my tears once more and kissed my forehead ' let's go back to sleep '

i feel safe around jahseh, he makes me comfortable

i'm not sure if i love him, but i can learn to