After highschool NCIS sequal

chapter 22

Ziva's POV

I arrive at a small little American style diner. it looks amazing. I take Tonys arm and squeeze it
"tony I love you so much" I say
"i love you too sweet cheeks" he replys
we sit in a booth next to a window with jazz music playing in the background and I see tony has tears in his eyes why?
"tony what's wrong?" I ask and he faces me
"the music, jazz was Kate's favourite and it was played at her funeral" he says and I feel a pang of jealousy in my heart. I feel horrible how can I be jealous of a dead person?
"it's okay to cry I know you loved her" I say and feel even worse
"not as much as I love you though" he says and takes my hand and I smile and look out to the window. the busy streets of Washington looked amazing at night
"why did you do this tony?" I ask
"what? can't I treat my wife right?" he chuckles and a young waitress with a short pixie blonde hair cut bounced over. she couldn't be more than 18. my first thought was Tony was going to flirt with her but he didn't look at her twice...
"what would you like to order sir?" she asks tony
"I'll have a double cheese hamburger with a large fries and a large chocolate milkshake please." he says
"and for the lady?" she asks writing down Tonys order
"urm please can I have a chicken burger and a medium salad and a regular coke please" she smiles and bounces away
"why didn't you flirt with her?"I ask
"because I love you silly" he smirks and I blush like a mad woman.
"someone's blushing" he laughs
"so tony, earlier you looked at me weird when I told MJ to come with me and you to take Anthony right?" I said and he nods
"okay well I did that because your not spending enough time with him he always feels left out and unwanted, it's not fair on him, he's not just my child he's yours too!" I raised my voice at the last part
"I never realised he felt this way, I'm sorry I'll try and be a better dad" he said
"it's not me you should be apologising too" I said
"I will apologise to Anthony tomorrow" he said and I smiled. the rest of the dinner was filled with small talk until I got a call.
"Gibbs what's wrong?" I say and tony looks at me worried
"it's Anthony he's gone missing" those words were my worst nightmare
"we will be there in a few minutes" I say my voice cracking. Tony pays and we head out, no questions asked.
"ziva what's going on?" tony asked when we were in the cat
"it's Anthony, he's gone missing" I said

Tonys POV

Anthony had gone missing, my little boy, the little boy I had neglected. I have this feeling he ran away because of me.
we drive up to the Gibbs house hold and walk in ziva in front of course.
"ziva hey" said Jenny and she went up and hugged her fiercely.
"I'm sorry ziver" said Gibbs
"okay so what happened?" I asked
"MJ and Anthony were playing and then we heard cries from MJ and Anthony. MJ said that Anthony had hit her but when Anthony tried to tell his side of the story I didn't listen I just comforted MJ instead" Gibbs said nearly crying.
"I know why he ran away then, of course, he feels like he's being neglected for not being here from the beginning, which is all my fault not his, he told me that he feels neglected and I didn't do anything about it until it was too late. it was never his fault" Ziva crys and sits on the sofa her head in her hands. I walk over there and comfort her by hugging her and kissing her head.
"ziva it will be okay, he will come back to us and we will be a normal family again and we can go out for dinner again as a family" I whispered in her ear
"and what if it's not tony? what if he gets kidnapped or worse killed, it could be his body on duckys tables tomorrow. He is only 3 years old! he can't defend himself or anything!" she shouts at me and I hug her tighter the reality kicking in.
A tired little 2 year old walked down the stairs. Uh oh not the best f timing MJ
"daddy! mummy!" she screamed and came to hug us.
"what's wrong with mummy daddy?" she asks so innocently
"What's wrong with me is that Anthony has gone missing and it's all your fault!" Ziva screamed at the little girl getting in her face, I was worried that for a second she was going to hit her.
MJ ran off and started crying, seeing MJ like this nearly killed me. But seeing Ziva like this and Anthony missing would Finnish the job.
"she's 2! how can any of this be her fault! shame on you ziva! just because your angry does not mean you can shout at MJ, hell your not even her mother!!" I shout at her instantly regretting it.
"ziva I'm..." I start but she cuts me up
"Your right Tony I'm not her mother but I am Anthony's and you expect me to raise MJ the same as I would Anthony. She even calls me mummy! so are you saying you don't want me to be her mummy anymore because if you don't want me I still have a house back in tela-viv if I need it, it's big enough for me and Anthony no one else and you won't even have to have Anthony anymore you don't need to pay me or anything because I was offered the director of mossads job and it's still there if I want it which would mean after a few months I would get the mansion that I grew up in. It would be a perfect life for Anthony, I might even get a new husband and have more kids. so just tell me if you want me to leave" she says calmly.
"ziva.. I don't want you to leave. I love you and Anthony" I say and leave it at that and leave the room to go and find MJ.
"hey" I whisper to Jenny who is cradling the little girl.
"she cried herself to sleep. she also misses Anthony, they've gotten so close in these weeks that ziva has been here, and it just doesn't work by taking away one of the children" Jenny says tucking her back into bed. I smile at her and go and sit by MJ, she looked so peaceful but you could easily tell she had been crying, her eyes were red and her face blotchy.
"DiNozzo, come on she's asleep you can leave her bed side now" said Gibbs.
"but what if she goes missing too?" I said
"she won't DiNozzo I won't let her" said Gibbs
"but you would let Anthony?" I asked an walked out.
where are you Anthony? this family is falling apart without you?