Everyone Has Fears (A Jadam Story)

Sad Boi Hours

(disclaimer- this part will involve cutting and blood. Just letting you know I'm case you didn't read the previous chapters or the summery)

((Also i had no idea what to write for this chapter so it might suck. Sorry and thanks for reading))

James' POV

   Adam left. He said he had to go to something. "What's wrong with him? Did you reject him when he was asking you out?" Jaiden laughed. I blushed and said "What? No! We were talking about something."
    Tim jumps into our conversation, "About what?" "Something personal to Adam. I don't think I should tell you." "Oh. Ok."
   "Speaking of Adam. Do you like him?" Jaiden asked out of the blue. "Well yeah. As a friend!" I felt flustered. "But you blush when he shows you affection." Jaiden says in a snarky tone. "I guess, but that doesn't mean I love him." "Suuuuurrrreeee." I sigh. There's no stopping them. "Fine. Maybe I do have a small crush on him. Happy?" I admit it. But it wasn't a small crush
   "I didn't say anything because I thought you would think I'm weird for being bi." I say with a bit of sadness in my voice. "Aww. James we wouldn't hate you for something you can't control." "Yeah we'll always support you no matter what." Jaiden and Tim say, reassuringly. It kinda makes me sad that I had good friends I probably don't deserve. I smile and nod
   "They think you're disgusting. They're just putting on an act to look like they're your friends." "No. They wouldn't do anything like that." "How are you so sure?" "..." "See? They'll leave you. Eventually."
   "Hey James! Wanna ask Adam if he wants to get food with us." Tim's question snapped me back into reality "Sure that's fine." "Okay" Jaiden continues to text Adam if he wanted to get some Subway
   Adam said he would meet us there so we get into Jaiden's car. My car has been with the police for a day now. They said they would call me if they found anything.
   When we arrived, there wasn't many people there. There's one person that stood out to me though. He looked like the person I saw at the mall and at McDonalds.
   "Who even is that? Why do I keep seeing them? He looks like a man. Was he the one that wrecked my car? Should I confront him?!?"

Jaiden's POV

   James looks like Ari did his morning poop on him... Maybe it's because Adam is coming. "Hey James. Adam isn't going to reject you." Tim snickered, as if he was reading my mind. James blushes and says "Tim! I'm not going to ask him out!"
   I laugh "Don't worry it's not like he's going to say no." "You don't know that!" We stop teasing James when I see Adam enter.
   "Don't worry." I mouth and wink at James. "Hey Adam. Can I ask you something?" I say to Adam as he approaches our table. He sits down and says "Sure. What?"
   "Do you like anyone?" I ask and Tim smirks. "J-Jaiden!" James whisper-shouts and lightly elbows me. "Um. I g-guess." Adam says sheepishly.
   "Who is it?" Tim asks. "That's classified information!" Adam says. He looks very flustered. I ask "Hmm Is it Jenny?" "Who's that?" "No? What about Clay?" "That's an inanimate object, Jaiden."
   "Fine. Are they a boy or a girl?" Adam goes silent before saying "They're a guy. I guess I'm coming out of the closet." "Don't worry Adam. I support you." I say and James and Tim nod in agreement.
   "Wait. Is it James?" I ask him with a huge grin. He blushes even more and says "Pffffft. W-what? W-why would I-I love him. H-he's my b-best friend."

James POV

   "Pffffft. W-what? W-why would I-I love him. H-he's my b-best friend."
   Those words. They hurt. A lot. "Who does he like? I want to hurt them. Adam is supposed to be mine. I can't let anyone take him away from me."
   "I g-gotta uh u-use the r-restroom. I'll be right back." When I entered the bathroom, I took out my pocket knife. My mom told me to carry it in public in case of crazy fans. Never thought I would have to use it.
   "Wow. Adam doesn't give two shits about you. Don't blame me when he leaves you in the dust." "Shut up."
   The blade pierced my skin, leaving drops of a red substance behind. Yeah, it hurt but it also felt com-forting. I proceeded to let the blade glide over my arm in several places, revealing what was underneath my skin. I kept going until I felt the need to stop.
   It was cold outside so I was wearing a hoodie with sleeves. I rolled them down in hopes the blood wouldn't leak through or stain my clothes.
   When I was heading back to the table, the person dressed in all black was in front of me. He was tall and skinny. I always saw him with his hood on but now I could see his face clear as day. He had scars and pale skin. He looked like he hasn't slept in weeks. He had dark circles with bags under his eyes. And I thought I was ugly.
   "Didn't I say to stay away from Adam? If you continue to disobey my commands I might have to get rid of you. Got it?" He whispered in my ear and walked off before I could react.
   It was all clear. Every question I had about him was answered by a conversation that lasted for only a few moments. He was following us because he wanted me to stay away from Adam. He was the one that destroyed my car. And I should go confront him. Or even better: show him who Adam really belongs to. (insert maniacal laughter)
   But first, I had to get rid of my sadness. Then every single feeling I have except for my feelings towards my friends and Adam. I must protect them. I owe them for being so nice to me.

Adam's POV

   While James was at the bathroom, I thought about what I said. "Was I too obvious? Did James find out? Did he leave because he thought I was weird?!?" "He already thinks you're disgusting. You might as well cut yourself again."
   When James came back something seemed off about him. He looked stiff but he had envy in his eyes. "Good going."
   James sat down at the table and acted like nothing happened, which I know something did. The only time I would put on and act was when I was around Lucas with others people watching us. Or when I cut myself. I stopped after I got away from Lucas. It was like the only reason I was sad was because of him.
   When I met James, I found out that I was happiest the most around him. To me, it's like he's the sunlight I needed for happiest part of me to come out.
  
   James acted normal for the most part but while we were talking, I saw some blood. It stained James' jacket sleeve. I quickly grabbed his wrist and dragged him into the bathroom, not caring about the confusion on Tim and Jaiden's faces.
   I let go when we we're inside. "James...?" "Y-yes Adam?" he's asked in a scared voice after noticing the blood dripping from is arm. "Why is there blood coming from your sleeve?"