You're Not in this Alone *The final book in the We'll Carry on Series*

Until my dying day

Stormy’s point of view;

Three months later

“Mommy!” Bandit screamed, running into my now open arms. I smiled and caught my laughing daughter in my embrace.

“Hi, baby! Did you have fun with your daddy?” She smiled wide and nodded her head ferociously.

Gerard watches Bandit while I’m at my chemo appointments or at the hospital. No papers have been signed yet, but there also have been no words exchanged between Gerard and I. Mikey is the one who set up the visitation arrangement for Bandit and Gee. I missed Gerard so much that it killed me on the inside. Some days I would look through our wedding album and just sob. We were once so happy. We completed each other, and now? Well, let’s just say I haven’t seen him in months.

I missed the way he called me baby, the way he held me, kissed me, and touched me, the way he was. I missed him as a whole. He had cleaned up again so he could get time with Bee. Why he hadn’t signed the papers was still a mystery. Sadly, I had bad news to tell everyone today. My appointment wasn’t what I had wished for and neither were my results. I never wanted to die alone, but I guess in retrospect, I won’t.  I’ll have my family. Just not my husband.

“I missed you today Bee! What did you and daddy do all day?” I asked, faking a smile at Bandit’s small face. She was the light of my life, I swear to god. I couldn’t believe she was already five.

“Me and daddy went to the movies and went to eat yummy food! Daddy asked about you, mommy. Why isn’t you and daddy living together no mores?” Bandit asked innocently, scrunching her nose in curiosity.

“It’s nothing to worry yourself with, beez. Just remember that both mommy and daddy love you very. Very much and nothing will ever change that. Okay?” She smiled and grabbed my cheeks, kissing my hairless head. Yes, I had finally lost my hair. It was all gone, but Bandit and Mikey told me how beautiful  they thought I was every day.

“I love you more, mommy.” Bandit giggled. I let her down and she ran into the living room to watch AquaBats.

If only she knew just how much I loved her.  How much I would miss her. She gave my life a meaning, my soul purpose in life was to be her mommy, and I loved every single second of it. She was the best kid any parent could hope for and she was all mine. I had made her out of love with Gerard Way, the man who had saved my life and watched it crumble around me.

“Hey Mikey, I need you to call everyone. I have some bad news.” I spoke softly into Mikey’s shoulder as I leaned on it in the kitchen.

He shot me a worried and scared look and slowly nodded his messy head. Alicia walked in and noticed the tension. She gave me a knowing look with tears in her eyes. I simply nodded and looked to my beautiful daughter who was peacefully napping now.

The days with her were numbered.

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Gerard’s Point of View;

“What? Mikey, this isn’t funny.” I fretted to my brother who was in tears on what was once mine and Storm’s couch. HE shook his head.

“I know this isn’t funny. I have to see her go through this every day, Gerard. You don’t, you left.” He hissed at me. Okay, ouch. That hurt.

“She can’t die. I’ve wasted so much time! Jesus, I should have told her how I felt!” I cried.

 I still loved Stormy with every ounce of my being. She was my miracle, my angel. She was my hope in the storm. She was my wife. I refused to sign the divorce papers, I couldn’t. I had contemplated it, but in the end, I had decided to give her some time and then beg for her to take me back. Now my plan was getting sped along.

Stormy only had 6 months to live.

In the time spent without her, I was convinced she was getting better. I hadn’t seen or spoken to her, but Bandit kept me informed on what she knew. I would have never guessed that she was as bad as she was now. My heart tore into pieces and my world crashed around me yet again. It was like that horrid dream that had started all of this mess was finally coming true, and I was terrified. She needed me. My family needed me, we needed each other.

“I want her home, Mikey. It’s time.” I blurted out of nowhere.

“I figured when you were speaking your mind aloud, you should really stop doing that. I don’t know if she’ll come back though.” Mikey stated, looking at his awkward knees.

“Mikey, I need her. I need my wife and she needs her husband. Bandit needs both of her parents. Oh god, Bandit. Does she know?” I asked plopping down on the couch again in defeat. My poor daughter is going to grow up without  a mother, no correction, without the greatest mother and woman to ever grace the planet.

“She hasn’t left Stormy’s side or stopped crying. She even slept with her last night. I don’t see her leaving her side until it’s all said and done. She’s a huge mommy’s girl. Her world was torn to shreds. Frank and Lindsey stayed the night too. Jamia and Alicia and I slept on the floor next to Stormy’s bed. Audrey slept at the foot of their bed. No one took it too well.  She lost all of her hair, Gee.”

“She’s still perfect.”

“Yeah, that’s one thing we can agree on. She is perfect.”

*****

“Hello?” Oh my fuck, her voice could still put me in a trance.

“Hey, Stormy, uh, it’s Gerard, your shitty husband.” I laughed nervously.

“Oh hey, I remember you. What’s up?”  I wanted to tell her that I was falling apart without her, but she didn’t need that guilt when it was my fault.

“I know, Stormy. I know you’re dying.”

“Oh. Mikey?” I heard her sniffle on the other end,

“It doesn’t matter to me. I want you to come out with me tonight. We need to talk.” I said feeling tears streak down my face.

“It doesn’t  matter to you that I’m dying?” She scoffed.

“No, it doesn’t matter to me that you’re sick. I still love you. I never stopped. That’s why I never signed the divorce papers.”

Silence.

“Pick me up at 8.” She hung up the phone after that.

She had no clue what was actually in store for her. I was going to make things right. I was going to get my wife back.

It’s amazing how hearing that your true love is going to die, will open up your eyes. I just wish we had more time.