The one I shouldn't fall for

Hello stranger

I don't know what to do with myself. I'm standing here, at the door of my hotel room with no makeup on and the buggiest top ever, looking like shit and Jack has just arrived. Brilliant. Perfect timing.
"You couldn't have came about ten minutes ago when I had my makeup and nice clothes on?" I scoff before leaving the door open and walking in,
"You don't need makeup, I've told you that loads of times" he laughs,
I sit down on my bed and look at him to see that he's came in with a pizza and a bottle of irn bru.
"Taste of home!" I beam,
"As always" he smiles at me before sitting on the top of the bed and placing the pizza in between us.
Every time I came over to see jack or Jack came over to see me we would have the same schedule, we would eat a 16" pepperoni pizza between us and then talk about random stuff and it's the only way Jack could've arrived here tonight, it's tradition.
Taking the first slice of pizza I wait on him making conversation, why is he here?
"You're back!" He states,
"Yeah, had to come back at one point" I laugh,
"True. What happened with Liam?" He asks,
"Said he liked me, sooked me in and spat me back out once he got what he wanted, usual" I rant,
"The idea of someone doing that to you makes me so angry Rachael" he stares at me, if not at me, through me.
"It makes me angry too, wee dick" I laugh trying to ease up on the seriousness of the conversation,
"A lot has happened since you left" he states, I look at him apologetically and to be honest I wish I was here with him to go through it all but I couldn't be, it would've resulted in one of us getting really hurt and more than likely being me. "I've changed a lot you know" he smiles,
"I've noticed, Jamie told me you're clean, not been back in and only drink a few times a week. I'm proud of you" I grin,
"You're the one person I want to know though, I don't care about anyone else noticing except you... And your mum" he smirks, "seeing you sit here as beautiful as you are and saying you're proud of me makes me so happy" he smiles under his piece of pizza and I know he's embarrassed,
"Well I couldn't not be proud of you, I'm the person who know exactly how much this would have taken for you and that's why I couldn't come back. I didn't know if I was going to come back and you'd be in a drain or lying on the street somewhere. I didn't know and that scared the life out of me, to think of the person who I loved more than anything else to possibly be dead, it's terrifying" I start to sob, why am I such a wimp? So annoying.
As I sob he holds me, holds me close to him and I can't believe I'm back here again, in his arms but this time it's different. I'm different, he's different and I wish that was the way it was before.
"I'm sorry" I cry,
"Don't be, I hate seeing you like this and every time you cried I couldn't face it and that's why I lashed out at people and ended up inside" he replies, before wiping away my tears with his thumb, "please don't cry" he asks,
That's all I remember of that night, he held me close to him and I was so comfortable that I drifted off into a deep sleep, everything seemed right.
I wake up and I know he's sleeping due to his breathing so I slide my way cautiously out of his firm grip and go for a shower, as I enter back into the room in only a towel I see that he's up and when he sees me his eyes nearly pop out of his head.
"You haven't half changed" he laughs,
"What's that supposed to mean?" I ask going into my underwear drawer,
"You look amazing!" He smiles,
"Well thank you" I can't help but blush by his compliment,
I head to the toilet and get changed into another baggy top,
He's now sitting up on the bed fully clothed and all I want to do is rip the clothes clean off him but I won't. I blow-dry my hair before putting it up into my signature messy bun and applying minimal makeup.
"Good sleep?" I ask,
"The best" he smiles, "sorry that I made you cry last night"
"Don't worry about it, I'm just hormonal. You know how emotional I get" I laugh,
"are you on it just now?" He asks, referring to my period,
"Started this morning" I screw my face up in the shower,
"Why didn't you tell me? I would've went and got you shit?" He quizzes, his accent becoming more and more prominent when he's angry, love it.
"Probably because I've not seen you in four years and the first thing I tell you isn't going to be that I'm on my period" I snap,
"You really are on it" he states referring to my snap,
"No shit Sherlock" I reply,
I know I'm being nasty but sometimes I just can't help it, it just comes over me.

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It's now two days until the wedding and the past month has been amazing, it's really showed me that just now was the correct time to come back. I've had my spray tan, my nails done and I need to wait until Friday to get my hair and makeup done but I'm so excited. My Mum and Garry are better than ever with them going to pick their wedding rings today which leave Jamie and I to go to where we are all meeting for lunch and that's where we are now, Jamie and Lauren at one side whereas I'm at the opposite end with Jack. Jamie told my Mum and Garry about us seeing each other again but they've not mentioned anything to me although my Mum told me to bring someone to this meal and she knows he's the only one I've been seeing which is classic Helen. Funnily enough it's actually not awkward, Jamie, Jack and I used to be like the three musketeers and recently with me spending more time with Jack, Jamie has been there sometimes also and I like it being that way, my favourite boys.
My Mum and Garry soon arrive and they don't act surprised at all to see Jack, I know she knows he's changed and I'm happy she does because he really has and it's for the best. We spend the next two hours talking about the wedding and although I was taking Jack as my plus one my mum and Garry both just invited him and Garry even wants him to go get ready with the boys and I'm happy with how much their attitudes towards him have changed, I can't stop smiling.