The one I shouldn't fall for

WTF

It's been six weeks since the wedding so since my Mum and Garry are on their honeymoon Jack and I have been living here while setting up my flat. It's been a hectic few weeks but now all of my things are over and I've officially moved to Northern Ireland. Jack and I are going well, neither of us are seeing other people and he's making me happy. We've spoken about the past and how much things have changed because it's important for us to clear it up before we can move on with our lives together and that's what I want more than anything. The past few days I've not been feeling well so Jack and I have decided to have a night in with a movie and be lazy.
"How are you feeling now?" Jack asks,
"A bit better, I've not been sick since 12.30" I state,
"That's good, what do you think is wrong with you?" He quizzes,
"I'm not sure, I thought it was maybe food poisoning but I don't think that anymore" I reply,
"I hate seeing you unwell" he complains, "are you due your period?" He asks, it's scary hoe well he knows me, I sit for a moment to just think. I am due my period, in fact... I'm late. I think Jack notices the terror in my face and he asks the question we are both thinking,
"Could you? You've been really hormonal" he quizzes,
"I don't know" I whisper as I start to cry,
"please don't cry" he demands, being so concerned,
I can't help it, the tears are flowing and there is no stopping,
"I'll run you a bath and I'll go to the shop" he demands,
He does as he says as I sit on the couch balling my eyes out before I head upstairs and get into the candle lit bath he's left for me as he runs the errands. I don't know what to think, what should I think? Should I be ok with this? What if I'm not and I'm just being a hypochondriac but then why is my period two weeks late and how have I not noticed? Then again what will my Mum say? What will Jamie say? Will Jamie be ok with this? I hate this. I'm trying to relax but I just can't. I hear Jack come in and the door be shut and locked before I hear him run upstairs to meet me, he looks just as scared yet I know he's trying to act like he's not bothered.
"I got six different ones, just to make sure" he states before sitting them all at the sink,
I get out of the bath and he hands me a towel before I pee on the sticks and getting back into the bath. I'm so nervous,
"Are you ok now?" He asks,
"Yeah" I smile,
We are silent for around five minutes,
"How long has it been?" I ask,
"5 minutes" he sighs,
"It's time" I state,
I grab three and he grabs three before we count to three and I see three different pregnancy tests telling me that I'm pregnant. I look up at Jack who is smiling at me,
"You're pregnant" he smiles,
"Yeah" I reply,
"This one says that you're around five weeks" he states,
"How do you feel about this?" I ask,
"When you first said that you could be I couldn't stop thinking about last time because of everything that happened and we lost it and I blame myself completely for that but now what's stopping us? You've moved over here, I've got a good job, your Mum, Garry and Jamie are here, my Dad's here. What do you feel?" He quizzes,
"Scared" I reply before starting to cry again,
"Don't cry!" He pleads before stripping down and getting into the bath beside me,
"Sorry, I'm just scared, we can't tell anyone until we know everything's ok because I can't go through that again" I demand,
"Of course not, whatever you want babe" he replies before sitting behind me and putting his hands over my stomach, "this has made me the happiest I've ever been" he states,
"Well that went better than expected" I laugh,
It amazes me how well he's taken this and the fact that he's taken it better than me amazes me. He really is one in a million, after all of this time he's still trying to make it work with me. Even when Jack was out of his face on alcohol or drugs in his own little way he would always make sure that I was ok and I'm really thankful for that because without him I wouldn't be the person I am today, I'm really thankful for him and for me finally getting the guts to face him again, it only took 4 years.