Issues (A Ghostbird fanfic)

I'm Not Broken

The hallucinations had ended a while ago, but the scars have been burned on my mind. I'm rocking myself on the floor trying to calm the speedy heartbeat of mine, I'm trying to make the scars hurt less, and I'm trying to pick out a smile to make sure it seems that I'm not broken.

I heard the thudding footsteps of mother coming upstairs. I slapped my happiest smile, dried the remaining tears, and put my head down pretending to sleep.

"Wake up you piece of trash! Go get dressed right now! Get up! Get up! You need to buy school supplies." She yelled while splashing me a with a bucket of ice cold water.

I shot right up and flashed a wobbly smile at her,
as the cold seeped into my clothes and tried to get into my bones. I nodded my head, grabbed everything I would need, and then zoomed straight to the shower the minute mother had left. The water hissed as it made contact with my skin, making me flush a nice shade of pink. I wish I could say that the heat also caused my eyes to be a nice pink but that would be a dumb lie. My tears were mixing with the water as I willed myself to stop those nasty little buggers. Not long after I stepped out and put on black leggings, a black hoodie, black shoes, all paired  with long knee high blue fuzzy socks. I never get to dress cute and cozy I thought to myself as I stared at my reflection. I applied some concealer and dried my hair so that it would look nice shiny and sleek. I felt pretty and whole for once. I skipped down the stairs letting a genuine smile grace my face. Today was the day I thought to myself. I'm going to feel normal, like normal as in teenage girl normal! I wanted to jump and scream but willed my self not to as I saw mothers piercing gaze glaring straight at me.
She threw 50 dollars at me and told me she wants the receipt when I get back home.

"Ariel! Ariel." I heard someone call out.

I turned around and discovered it was my father.
He took me by my elbow and dragged me to my room.

"This is 200 dollars. Use it wisely, and don't tell your mother or your sisters that I handed it to you. Hide it well, keep it safe Ariel. If they find it they're going to assume the worst, and if and when they do....you know what'll happen."

I nodded my head, and let a shiver run through my body before saying thank you.

"Moving on from that. I called a taxi out front for you. I paid the fare and the tip. I'll distract your mother and sisters. When I snap my fingers run straight out to the taxi. Alright?"

He walked straight out of my room, not even waiting for me to respond. 

"Honey, girls? Can you please come to my room!"

They gathered around him like sharks gather around for meet. I grabbed the cash and stuffed in into a casual black wallet and stood near the door waiting for the snap. "Snap!"

I bolted down the stairs, quietly closed the door, and rushed straight into the open doors of the taxi. I smiled at the driver as he started the engine and drove off, to what I'm assuming should be the mall. The taxi reeked of sweat, cigarettes, and God knows what else. Even though it reeked I sat back and enjoyed a luxury that I have never had.

Today I get to be a normal girl, a normal teenage girl who's going out to the mall. Though I do wish that I could've had a happy family or a good set of friends that would've come along with me. Just so I wouldn't be lonely. But who knows maybe, just maybe I'll make some friends of my own today.