Oh My Gospel! | Camboy Jimin x Reader x BTS

Black Swan

I'll be deleting this soon.

I just wanted to say that BTS's new single, Black Swan, really hits me in the feel.

It literally tells how they feel about being an artist now, after years of journey, ups, and downs, now they reached the top, at some point they get tired of what they've been doing, their heart doesn't vibrate the same way it used to be. This is literally happening to EVERYONE.

including me.

Since I was a little I love to draw, I drew on every single of the wall in my house, even when my mom complained. So when I grow up I wanted to do and be something related to what I like, so designer it is.

But as I've done this for years, being a designer, it got me to the point where I hate what I'm doing. I'm not as excited anymore, the design is a burden instead of what I love.

That's the reality everyone needs to accept once they choose what they love as a career. At some point what you love became what you're tired the most.

Yet it's not an excuse for me to give up. That's what I learned after a few years of trying to stay in my workplace.

I've chosen this path on my own, I shouldn't regret it just because I'm tired. Because I'm an adult and I have to take responsibility of my own choices. Because if it's not design then what else could I do (I mean I can be a lawyer and such, but choosing other career, will that guarantee I'll be happy? No.)

So for everyone who feels the same way as I do, don't give up.

Find anything else to do besides what you do now.

Like me, being in Wattpad is like a gate away for me from my reality. I started to write and I truly enjoyed what I'm doing, no more pressure of pleasing the clients, no more pressure from any boss. It's just me and you, my readers.

So I sincerely thank you for everyone who leaves such beautiful and supportive messages.

Know this, you guys are the ones who keep me alive when I'm almost giving up. When my life disappoints me, I came and read all of your crack comments (that's why post more, don't worry, I love and read every single of it though I can't reply it one by one.)

Sorry if I rambled too much.

But purple you as much as I purple BTS too 💜
Pardon any kind of grammatical errors since I just get home from the office and haven't eaten yet 😂