Hide and seek (editing)

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G W E N ' S P O V :

I'm really am stubborn.

When monday comes, I immediately look for Austin. Because I'm going to asked him to take us back together. I know he goes to school early. So I also went to school early. Not even waiting for David to pick me up. And goes to a place he might be.

I saw him at the school fields bleachers and he's with.... Betty. I have to do what I have to, even if the devil is out there. I walked to them, but they didn't notice me cause they're back is facing me. But I stopped and hide to a post near them because I heard they uttered my name.

"Are you and Gwen hooking up?" I heard slutty betty asks.

"No we're not!" Austin replied. Of course we're not just a simple hook ups.

"So you're dating?"

Yes!

"No!"

Okay we're not dating anymore, but why does it still hurt my feelings?

"I knew it! She's just delusional, right?" She said smiling triumphantly.

He just looked at her not even saying anything. They're staring at each other. With Austin's poker face and Betty's flirty smile. But I was shocked to what Betty did next, she kissed him on the lips. And Austin didn't even move. He maybe is startled or maybe he likes what Betty is doing.

I turned my back and start walking away. Bothered and unconsciously walking. Then I entered the school building again. I don't want to watch how they grope each other and what will happened next, especially when it's too early and they think that it's only them around. Am I really just delusional? And am I just too hopeful that he'll going to take me back, when he has Betty all along? What if I come to them and ask him to get back together infront of that bitch? Then I'll become a big joke if he refused to.

"Hey Gwen!" Someone called me, that bring me back from floating. It's Ronald. I didn't even notice that I am about to bump into him because of my thoughts.

I looked at him and he's smiling at me. But I can't even smile back at him, because I'm sad. And I don't know what is wrong with me, I lean my head onto him. My forehead to his shoulder. But he's tall saw it's almost above his chest.

I didn't say anything. I just close my eyes. And he didn't say anything too. He just path my head, then he stroke my hair. While I'm crying silently. After a minute or two, I stand up straight.

"Oh I'm sorry." I said, as if I walk up from a bad dream. Wiping my wet chicks with the back of my hand. Like a little child.

"No problem. Are you okay?" He asked concerning to my state of emotion.

"Yeah... of course." then I sigh. "I have to go to my first period. Bye." I smiled at him faked like. "See yah around."

Then I turn around. I didn't wait for what ever he have to say and walked to the unending corridor to my next class.

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I didn't mention to my friends what just happened this morning and my plan on getting back with him. Because I don't want another rant from Dave. I actually didn't even cry. But I can still feel the pain inside my chest.

And like what Austin said, we're back to zero, to nothingness. He doesn't look at me anymore, not even a glance. It's as if I didn't exist. Even in math class, he did sit beside me because there's no available seat anymore, but he's treating me like a wind.

I too pretend that he doesn't exist. The thing I see this morning lingers through my brain the whole time. I wasn't angry. Why would I be? I've seen him before with different girls. I'm just sad and heartbroken.

I have to move on. And I'll get through this. Swear! I promise it to myself.

Until the day ends just like that.

One of the saddest day of my life.

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The next day, just like before, Dave drive me to school. And because he knew how sad I am, he didn't say anything about Austin. Or even mention his name. We just talk about things that we usually talk and he goes on driving.

But before we arrived school. My phone beep. And I immediately opened it. It's a message from Ronald.

Ronald:
Good morning pretty 😊

I didn't reply. And maybe David saw it too because he frowned a little then smiled.

"I know you're still sad. And it isn't the right time. But... why don't you give others- who really do like you, a chance." he said holding my hand, while his other hand is in the steering wheel. Then he glance at me. "I'm not saying that Austin doesn't deserve you. But you deserve to be happy and to be loved. And Austin isn't willing to give that to you. So why don't you give chance to someone who's willing to give you the happiness and love that you deserve."

I look at him. "I love you Dave. And I am so lucky to have you as my bestfriend." And smiled at him sweetly.

"Don't look at me like that darling. You're not my type and I deserve someone better than you." He stated grinning at me. Gone is the serious type Dave and back is the Dave that everyone knows.

I just laughed at him. The most genuine laugh I've ever did since after prom.

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