Hide and seek (editing)

47.

G W E N ' S P O V :

What is happening? We're so happy earlier this evening and now we're arguing again. I want to smooth thing out. I have to say something that will end all this confusion.

"Choose? There's is no real option. It's always you, always has been. How can I choose from you and Ronald?" I exclaimed

He did not answer and just keep on drinking his wine.

"You're my first in everything." I said

"Yeah right! There's no option cause I am your first kiss and your first fuck. That's the only reason you're keep coming back with me." He said in his sad voice.

"No I wasn't." I defended.

"So you're not staying with me?"

"I'll stay not just because you're my first kiss and you took my virginity." I replied then I look at him. And he's not looking at me, he keeps on drinking but I know that he's waiting for my next statement. I sip on my wine to get a little courage from it. "You're my first love." I confess.

He look at me immediately in wide eyes. "What?" He asked

"Can you not make me say it again?" I said pleading. I should be confident by now cause I know how he feels for me. But what if it wasn't love. What if it's just obsessional habit of him to take a picture of me?

How can I be this insecure?

"I just want to be sure if what I've heard is right."

Do I need to repeat it? Maybe I should.

"Ok fine! You're my first love Austin! I've liked you since I am nine and I'm liking you still. And I thank God that you're my first in everything." I replied shyly.

I felt a warm liquid falling down my cheek. I didn't know that I am already crying in just confessing my love for him.

He look at me intently. Then he smiled, the smile that is more lively and happy. I also look at him and I saw the ten year old boy I've fallen in love with eight years ago, smiling at me. He wipe my tears and lean forward to kiss me on my forehead.

"Come, I'll show you something." He said, then he stands up and help me go down from my high stool.

"Where are we going?" I asked

"To my room."

"Is this sex after confession?"

He looks at me and laughed. Loud and humoured. Then I realized how humiliating that is to asked.

"We'll have sex if you want to, but first, I'll show you something." He said still laughing at my expense.

I felt I am still blushing as he hold my hand while walking to his room.

We went inside. And he told me to open the door that Gab showed me. And I do as he said. I saw there what I've saw this morning. The paintings, portraits and photos. I still felt the cringe and the happiness inside the first time I saw it.

Then he made me face him. "I love you, Gwen, the first time I saw you."

I cried again. Tears full of joy. Then he lean forward to give me a brief kiss. Then he pull me to a photo of a girl playing with butterflies.

"This is the first time I saw you. Not in the shoot. So I've fallen in love first." He smiled and pull me again and he tell the story of every creation he made. Until we reach the picture of me laying on his bed sleeping. "This is one of the happiest day of my life. Until I wake up without you next to me." I can feel his disappointment in his voice. Then he continues telling the best fairytale ever.

I don't know what to say. I am still crying with great joy. Then he kiss me again. It's nice and ecstatic. As he wipe away my tears.

"Stop crying please." He said. "Haven't you notice that I am always there almost wherever you are? I'm your greatest fan, my love." He declared and hugged me tight.

"I love you Austin. I love you so much that my heart is about to burst." I said and still crying. "But I have to tell you something."

"What is that?" He push me a little to see my face. He gets a little confused.

"Gab already show this to me this morning before the game. David, Emily and Gab, they connive, because they saw how miserable we both are. They think this is the best that they can do." I pause to snip "but, the feelings is still overwhelming, with you by my side explaining every pictures to me, and every details of it."

He's shocked. "So this is where you got your confidence for kissing me in front of everybody?" I look at him and he looks a little disappointed.

"Don't get disappointed and please don't get mad at Gab for showing this to me. I am whole heartedly thanking them for showing this and for helping us. I love you Austin. And the process of how I've known your secret is nothing to do with how I felt for you. They just made it a little easier. And I love you more for this."

__________
_____

😭💋