DAZED

Chapter Eighteen

"Come on babe, Finn is here and I'm explaining my family issue to him," I tell her standing from the bed putting on my top. We didn't do anything like that but that doesn't mean we can't kiss. A lot.

"Okay don't forget to mamas your trainer is gonna see you at the gym in an hour." She replies also putting her shirt on - sadly. I was really nervous, for me, therapy wasn't the answer. I'm more of a physical person. It took a serious toll on me when I was finally told the truth. When I look back on my past troubles, I never took it in just focused on my new thing. An example when I dealt with no family at graduations, prom, or anything important. I would just focus on my school work or a job I had. I always considered my life easy, I'm pretty, I have money, and a good GPA. Why should I cry? Maybe that's my problem I don't know... I shake my head slightly and walk out to the living room; where Finn was sitting with Peaches and Petunia. He stands and gives me a tight hug. He will never know how badly I needed that.

"Hey, Ana. How are you feeling today?" He asks sitting back down, I take a seat beside him. I hear Billie faintly shuffling around in the kitchen.

"I'm fine. You?" I reply putting Petunia on my lap and petting her before she decides to leave like a bitch.

"I'm alright. So, this family issue?"

"When I turned 18 I looked into my files, the adoption agency I was apart of had kept me and a sister apart. On purpose. After that, I researched anything I could do. This shit is normal. It's an experiment..." his face morphs into a look of disgust.

"A sister?"

"A twin."

"What? Holy fucking shit." I nod at his reaction, I feel Billie sit beside me and place her hand on my hip. Her support and just her being here helped so much. If I really looked at my life it was chaotic but I never wanted to focus on it. Why would I? I have an amazing girlfriend and an amazing best friend.

"Yeah, her name is Luna Winters, she was adopted at 4. She lives two towns over."

"Wow. Is she an identical twin?"

"No. But we look pretty fucking similar."

"Why have you never contacted her?"

I stand up and scoff beginning to walk around.

"How could I? Junior year I could barely say hi to my classmates." Billie stands up and wraps her arms around my waist. Her warmth and comfort were exactly what I needed.

"Look. You don't have to do this, only if you want too." She spoke softly into my ear, I wanted too.

"I do. I'm just" I was hesitant to continue but I love her. I need to be honest. "I'm really fucked scared." She kisses me gently before placing her forehead against me.

"I'm with you mamas." I nod my head. "Now come on. You have to hit the gym."

"Yeah. What are you gonna do?"

"Some media and shit." She replies, Finneas butts in.

"I'm going to go start the car okay?" We nod at him before turning to face each other again.

"Sometimes I forget you're famous," I admit with a slight chuckle.

"I know mamas it's a breath of fresh air."

"I mean I'm sorry I never ask you or talk about it." I apologize sheepishly, I felt really embarrassed about that.

"Baby it's okay. I get asked about it all the time. Nothing major has happened. So I mean why ask?" She shrugs it off.

"Bil, anything involving your job- is important," I reassure her, it was 100% true. She nods with a smile that seemed a bit forced and gave me a kiss.