Going Back

Chapter Eighteen - Stay Tonight.

He kissed me, and everything went hazy, I could barely think straight as he lifted me off the bench and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He walked with me, through his apartment, never once removing his lips from mine. He pushed his door open with my back and walked to the bed. He sat me down and looked down at me, his face full of earnest but also concern.

"You sure you want this."

I nodded, I'd never been so sure of anything in my entire life. I licked my lips and let my hands rise up Evan's thighs, I fumbled with the button on his jeans, eventually undoing it. I pulled them down, along with his boxers and his already engorged penis fell out on full display.

"You see what you do to me now Ace?" he purred.

"Now? As in this has happened before..." I whispered. "Because of me?"

Evan bent down and kissed me hard on the lips. "Many times Ace... Your smile has a direct line to my cock."

Cock, my heart skipped a beat and my stomach filled with butterflies. I hadn't been a child for sometime, but now it was becoming clearer to me that feeling sexy wasn't a bad thing. I lifted my hands to touch him. He was hard, so impossibly hard and yet the skin was soft and silky and warm. He sucked in a breath at my touch and I felt him tense, everything tense.

"Jesus Ace." He groaned.

I let go and looked at him with concern. "Did I hurt you?"

Evan shook his head. "No... the opposite, I don't know how long I can hold it together."

"I do that to you?"

"You have no idea." he said softly, as he knelt down and removed my pants. "I'm going to be gentle with you. It might hurt a little. Tell me if you want me to stop."

I nodded, Evan walked to his bedside cabinet and opened it, he pulled out a small foil package and tore it open.

He put it on and then hovered above me. I was aching for him, so I grabbed him around the neck and pulled him down close to me. His lips grazed mine and he whispered my name, as he pressed against my opening. I let out a soft yelp, he kissed me and pushed harder. It pinched as I allowed him in, but only very slightly and it stopped almost instantly.

"Evan." I murmured.

"You're so beautiful Ace." he whispered with soft eyes. He kissed me as he moved in and out at an almost painfully slow pace. I had never felt anything like it, the vibrations building within me were something I'd never known. I wrapped my legs around his hips and arched myself up to him.

"Fuck." he mumbled. "Fuck you feel so good."

"You don't feel to bad yourself." I teased softly, moving beneath him, building that vibration more and more. Evan's arms lifted me up, until he was cradling me and he thrust harder, and faster until I could no longer remember my name. I knew his though, and I kept saying it, over and over again until suddenly I forgot how to breath, I forgot how to do anything, I let out a sound, one that sounded primal and fierce as I was overcome by the vibrations, they moved all over me, starting from my center outward. If making love was like this every time I wasn't sure I ever wanted to leave Evan's bed.

I lay in Evan's arms, still shaking from the intensity. He held me close, steadying me as I tried to come back down to earth. His lips brushed against my forehead and he mumbled my name softly under his breath.

"Alice."

I knew what we had was meant to be no emotion, no relationship and no strings attached. But I'd gone against my word. I'd become one of those girls who said one thing but ended up meaning another. I hadn't set out to do it, not really but here I was... lying in his arms hoping that he felt even a small fraction of what I was.