𝙄𝘿𝙆 // Actually Stephen & Oddjayalter ᵒⁿᵉˢʰᵒᵗˢ

anything but you(III)💸

《Jay's POV》

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"Leaving already?"

"I need to leave already."
I get up and get dress

"Not even going to stay for breakfa-"

As he said those im already dressed and leave him to his bedroom.

•present time•

As she walked out and left me.

I feel so stupid!

"You have one job Jay! One job!"
said my left brain-

"Yes i know i fucked up but, i couldn't help myself."
said my right brain-

"And why is that?!?"
Left brain-

"She was...."
Right brain-

"She was WHAT! Jay?"
Left brain-

I pause for a moment cause i realize that i was talking to myself

(A/N wow! I didnt realise that jay! But please do continue-)

I know for a fact that i like (y/n) but i didn't get why was i acting like this.

•recalling last night•

Slowly tasting what heaven taste like-
She's sweet
She's a rush of euphoria

She's addicting!

Like the taste of mojito

Kissing her.
Touching her.
Making her feel good.

Everything at this moment is heaven to me.

Im slowly enjoying drinking every inch of her but-

"Jay i thi-nk w-e should s-top."

At that moment i know im falling hard.

Have you been in a situation where you don't want to do this certain thing but you have to do it? I know i sound selfish but being selfish is part of human nature. Specially if your in love.

So i asked her-

"(Y/N) why do you want to stop?"

Hoping for her to say she's shy or bashful about this but looking at her-

I can see it in her

She's being conflicted. 

So i asked her-

"What's wrong with this?"

"Jay we're friends. I dont want to ruin our friendship when we wake up."

In that moment i realize. I FUCKED UP BIG TIME. If we dive futher than this, everything will be so confusing for the both of us. And i just realise that we are both oblivious of are action.

I love (y/n) but I'm too a pussy to be a man.

And (y/n)'s wanna make sure everything is real before jumping into conclusion.

And if we really have sex tonight. (Y/N) will think that this is just a One Night Stand.

After this, we will just say that "its the alcohols fault"

"Sorry for the mess."
that's all I could say

"Jay its ok. No hard feelings ok? The alcohol is just taking control of our hoe side like its main bitch so don't worry. Ok!"

"You're right, i think we should just sleep this away. No offend or anything."

"Jay its alright. I guess we should sleep. Goodnight then."

"Goodnight."

• p r e s e n t  t i m e •

It's been few days since that incident.

I thought it will be awkward when we meet again but when i saw (y/n)-

Everything just stay the same, as if that night never existed and it's FUCKING frustrating.

I want to explain my action behind it but (y/n) keep shutting me up. (g/p) keeps insisting that its the alcohol when its clearly it's damn NOT!

And i want to make it clear to (g/p) that THAT night-

was not a mistake

Calling (y/n)
*ring*ring* *ring*ring*

"Hello?"

To be continue 》》

(A/n: ah shit! Here we go again with another note. Ill make this really short ok! So i add this (g/p) and it means it's your gender. Anyways did you enjoy the Jay series so far?)