𝙄𝘿𝙆 // Actually Stephen & Oddjayalter ᵒⁿᵉˢʰᵒᵗˢ

stranger (III)🍳

(Y/n POV)

once loved someone.
I meet him when i was 19
And loved him since then..
He was everything i don't deserve to have..

I started as noting but trying what does it felt like to be inlove
To we become inlove..

To the point that it's suffucating..
It's suffucating because you truly love me while I, I wasn't genually loving you.

I did loved him but it wasn't fair and true

He was thinking about our future while I was thinking about my future.
He was ready to gave me everything while I can only gave you half.
He was ready to be with me while I always say "wait for me."

He was everything i don't deserve..

At one point i said "why are you like this? Why do you love me so much? I don't deserve you.."

And when he said this word-
"I'm like this because I love you and you deserve everything love, why do you always belittle yourself? It sad to know you think we don't deserve eachother."

That made me realise that i need to let you go..

I let you go but you beg me to stay.
I said the cruelist things but you whisper to me noting but sweet words.
I let you down alot but you always back up..

You are the man i don't deserve..

You became the man of obsess of loving me to the point your crumbling down...

And it's time to say my goodbye.

I didn't break up with him because i was more focus to myself.
I didn't break up with him because your to good to me..

I break up with him because I trying to be selfless.

You and I we're first love.
You and I felt like you are the right one

We are happy

But you gave yourself to me that you have noting to gave yourself
You gave to much love that you can't even love yourself..
You gave to much effort that it became useless
You gave to much trust that you don't trust yourself

Everything about you, you gave it to me.

At that poin,t i realize that i love you so much..

I wasn't like what i thought before.
I thought i wasn't the right one for you..

But now you gave me purpose to think

I was the right one for you.

We end everything at 22.
I said it's finally to let me go but as always, you beg.

I said that i don't love you anymore and that i loved someone new but,
You still beg

Hosuh I'm not someone you should put into a pedestal. Im a person who loves you. Im not God but a human.

I love you that I'm ending it all for you.

As i said those he finally let go.

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It's been a year since we broke up.
Currently i'm 23 and so does he and im living at Toronto which is kinda far from where he is..

If your wondering-

Yes after the "can i get your number" incident in Solar de Luna cafe, we been together sooner then what i thought. But when we became 22, we both realize, everything that we have slowly fades and dulls away.
We can't feel the love and joy that we use to have.

Even though we both tried.
We just fell out of love.

which is four years ago and now Hosuh and I start to part ways.

I start working on my own business here and Toronto and he's still studying physician degree.

We will never internwine with one another again.

Ha! Jokes on me for believing that.

"Hi good day! Is this the number of the owner of the building for rent?"

"Ah good day to you too also and yes I am."

"Hi i would like to require about this building, I'm (y/n) (l/n) by the way."

He's voice kinda reminds me of-

"Hi I'm Hosuh Lee and about the building-"

Well fuck me gentle with a chainsaw then...