Shattered Mirror

Chapter 22: Pain In My Heart

Why do me eyes stare at you?
Blank as they empty heart of mine
Feeling so insecurely loved
Such a shame how I keep falling for you
I love you so much
I can't figure out
What you did to get me so fucked up
What you do to make me fall in love
Shit, is it all in my mind, mind, mind
Mind, mind
Pain in my heart, pain in my heart, pain in my heart
Pain in my heart, pain in my heart
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Amour

"Admit it, Innocent, don't nobody love you. Not even your own cousin Amour. She thought the whole time you was lying but at the end of the day who looks stupid? Yall do."

Giselle ran out the restaurant.

I attempt to run up on Chante but I was quickly snatched up by Harlem, who I had no idea was here along with Fatim. I immedeletly felt bad and so disgusted with myself. I didn't believe my own cousin and I had turn my back on her.

I chose Fatim over her. Fatim was my best-friend and Giselle was my cousin. I truly saw that even though Giselle was a bitch she still risked her life to save me. When I got kidnapped she still saved me. She still a little bit of love left for me even though her heart was turning ice cold.

I break free from Harlem's arms and run out the restaurant along with Ariel, and Genesis.

"Giselle!" We called out after her, running down the sidewalk. She didn't stop speed walking until I managed to grab her arm.

"Innocent!" I yell, using her real first name.

She quickly turns around facing me. "Don't call me that!" Giselle screamed with red eyes.

"And why not?" I inquired. "That is your name, Innocent."

"I don't give a fuck! Don't fucking call me that! I'm not Innocent anymore!"

"You are Innocent! Always have and always will be." Ariel adds.

"I'm not Innocent. I'm pure ice cold."

"Just because your ice cold doesn't mean shit."

"Yes, it does mean shit!" She argued. "My parents gave me the name because when they first held me, all they saw in me was innocent, they probably thought I couldn't do no wrong but every fucking body always want to do me wrong! People come and go in my life. I am so fucking deadly! It's like the people I love don't love me back! They leave me! My parents left me! My son, Elijah left me! The old me left me too!"

When Giselle talked none of us even bother to interrupt. This was a moment where she was finally expressing how she truly felt, instead of putting on this front. In a long time, we were getting a chance to listen to her and understand her and nobody wanted to cut it short.

"I so was fucking angry when my mom decided to die for me. She took multiple bullets for me! All because of a bitch who wanted to be the main! I seen what jealousy can do to people so why would I want to become that?! That crazy bitch hired men to murder my mother! The same one who spent nine months carrying me and hours birthing me! The same bitch gave my pops a choice either she kills me or him! I watch that fucked up ass bitch murder my pops right in front of me! That shit is still in my mind! I can't let go and never will!"

She sold me into prostitution at the age of seven! Those men abuse me mentally, emotionally, and physically! My body and mind couldn't take that shit! I had to do all types of shit that I didn't want to do! They raped me so many times! I cried every day just for somebody to save me!

That shit didn't stop until I got pregnant at thirteen that's when grandma finally found my ass and gained custody of me! I never knew what love was until I spent nine months carrying Elijah and giving birth to him! The moment I first held him I felt nothing but love! I was holding the whole wide world in my arms, there was nothing I wouldn't do for my baby! If nobody got me, I knew that Elijah got me!

That little boy was my rock and my whole heart! Every moment that he smiled, laughed and called me mommy, made me so happy! How do you think I feel when I get a call during class that someone snatched my baby up and a week later murder him?! I was so angry and lost! As his mother I am suppose to protect him and I wasn't there to protect him as his mother should! It was all my fault! I hated that bitch for everything she caused and they did to me! She was so lucky that I didn't get to her!"

It doesn't help the fact that two bitches that are my family is fucking with the bitches family either! I was so happy to know that on my first little day of high school I see that my so call cousin is fucking with the fucked up ass bitches daughter! My parents was your uncle and auntie, Amour! And how the fuck could you go behind my back Genesis and date that bitches son also?" Giselle vented.

"I didn't know this was how you feel." Genesis said.

"Regardless whether or not you knew you still should have asked! No one even bothers to ask me how do I feel! The only reason I kept my mouth shut was because I saw how happy he made you! I saw how much you loved and cared for him! If he made you that happy then there wasn't no need for me to tell you how I feel! But I am hurt and nobody sees that!"

"Inn-"

"I told y'all to stop calling me that! I'm not Innocent anymore! She's dead!" She yelled once again before taking off down the dark street.

"Fuck!" I screamed out in frustration.

Chante walked out the restaurant with the biggest smirk on her face and I just wanted to slap it off like butter. If Genesis wasn't a dark chocolate, you can tell that her face was starting to turn into a deep shade of red and I knew what she was thinking. Ariel and I had to hold Genesis before she did anything reckless. Chante was gonna get hers sooner or later no matter how much we all wanted to do some damage to her.

I turned around and came face to face with Fatim. A shock look was evident on her face and I felt even more guilty than I already was. I was just about to say something when she lifted her hand up, sending a powerful slap and a stinging sensation to my cheek. I touch my cheek and can already tell that it was turning red.

Out the corner of my eye I can see Ariel rolling up her sleeves on her hoodie before lifting her hand out but I grabbed a hold of it, stopping her.

"So this whole fucking time you knew the reason why Giselle hated me but yet you continue to let her beat my ass?"

"I --"

"What type of friend does that shit?"

"It isn't my damn fault that you don't have a tough skin." I retorted, not even meaning to say it.

Fatim's face fell. "So that's how you really feel?"

"I ---"

A tire screeching sound made me look at the road to see a black escalade pulling up. Kaiden, and X, stepped out the vehicle. Fatim's mouth dropped while looking at Kaiden. I closed my eyes, pinching the bridge of my nose with my thumb and index finger, preparing for Fatim's wrath that was soon to come once she saw her brother, Kaiden.