Shattered Mirror

Chapter 31: Win Some Lose Some

You win some and lose some, I heard that my whole life
I heard that my whole life, but that doesn't make it right
(Okay, you got ahead tonight)
Man, that doesn't make it right
Man, that doesn't make it right
How do you sleep at night?

Is this the example I'm tryna set?
Are these the people I'mma forget?
Are these the times I'mma regret?
Livin' life wishin' I could hit reset but, but

Okay, you win some, lose some, break some, bruise some
Life could be a test, multiple choice, choose some
Choose one, stick with it, man, prove some
Sometimes the best teachers is ourselves goin' through somethin'
Real life will teach your ass way fucking fast
I always thought my last girl was supposed to be my last
I got four aunties, two uncles, one dad
One mom, two brothers..
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Giselle

"What you think of the club?" Genesis asked, standing besides me.

I shrugged looking around the club. I couldn't even lie the club was amazing. In two days it would be Amour and Ariel's birthday. We were at the club where we would be throwing them a surprise birthday party.

This was my first time seeing the club where the party will be held. I honestly thought it would be perfect. We needed to make sure everything was in order and ready for the party. I didn't know what to get Amour for her birthday since we never got along nor knew each other that well.

But I wanted things to change. I want to be able to get over our problems and be able to start a friendship with her and let it progress later on. If she is willing to do so. I never talked to her about it but I was going to at the party.

I knew how bad our family wanted us to solve our problems and it was time to finally do so.

I walked side by side with Genesis, lopping my arm with hers as we shared smiles. I can honestly say being back home with the family really made me feel peaceful but I knew there was gonna be some drama.

"I hope you ain't forget that Angela's birthday is on the day of prom."

I threw my head back. I had already forgotten about prom.

"Shit!" I mumbled.

Genesis laughed. "What did you forget? Angela's birthday or prom?"

"Prom, but for Angela's birthday I want to get her something special."

Genesis sighed. "I know what you mean."

"Your going to prom?" I asked her.

She shook her head. "Yeah, why not? It's our last year in high school."

I shook my head. "I have thoughts about not going."

Genesis snapped her head towards me. "What the hell? Why not? If your not going then I'm not going."

I chuckled. "Girl, calm down. I said I had thoughts I didn't say I wasn't go long to go. Plus all of us don't go to the same school."

"Oh well, I don't care. We all deserve to go to prom, and it doesn't matter if we don't go to the same school. We can all just choose one school and go."

I sighed, rolling my eyes in a playful manner. "We do deserves to go to prom but don't you think it's last minute with dresses and everything?"

"Nope, I know for a fact that...yeah...never mind."

I laughed. "Don't worry, even if prom is only four days away we'll find something."

She shook her head. "Did Kaiden ever go to prom?" I asked.

"Yeah, he did but he went with someone else."

"Who?"

"It doesn't matter because I told him to go with her."

I looked at her as if she was crazy.

"What you Talkin' about?"

"I told him I didn't want to go with him. At the time we wasn't even going together."

"Does it matter? What's the real reason why you didn't want to go?"

"I was having mixed emotions about him. I felt as if I was to date him, y'all would think my loyalty isn't with you guys. And when I say y'all I mean YOU."

I shook my head, grabbing ahold of her hands.

"Innocent, I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel like your feelings wasn't important to me, when it does. I wanted to protect you in a way that I don't hurt you. I wanted to protect you from me."

"I understand now. Before I would let my emotions get the best of me."

"It's not your fault. Your emotions can come all at once. Your own emotions can overwhelm you."

"Ima admit it I was hurt for a while when I found out you and Kaiden started dating but when I saw how happy he made you, I decided to just back away and keep my feelings to myself."

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why do you always keep your feelings to yourself? Then express it in anger."

"I don't always express my feelings in anger." I argued back.

"You damn near shot up the whole city when Elijah died!"

"What was I suppose to do?"

"Cry. You were suppose to cry Innocent."

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After visiting my father's grave, I walk towards my car when I felt a hand on my waist. I jumped, turning around and backslapping that person who turned out to be Carter. I didn't even feel bad for slapping him.

"The fuck was that for?! You don't just go around slapping people."

I laughed. "Next time don't sneak up on me."

I noticed his face was a little bit red from the impact of the slap, but I didn't give one ounce of fuck. I proceeded to open the driver side of my door but a hand closed it.

"Can you at least let me holla at you fa' a moment ?"

I shook my head. "Nah, you made it clear the last time I saw you." I said before walking away.