Shattered Mirror

Chapter 32: Downtown Clubbing' (Part 1)

I'm feelin' myself, I'm feelin' myself
I'm feelin' my, feelin' myself
I'm feelin' myself, I'm feelin' my, feelin' my, feelin' myself
I'm feelin' myself, I'm feelin' my, feelin' myself
I'm feelin' myself, I'm feelin' my

I'm with some hood girls lookin' back at it
And a good girl in my tax bracket
Got a black car that let sax have it
These Chanel bags is a bad habit
I do balls, Dal Mavericks
My Maybach, black magnet
Bitch, never left but I'm back at it
And I'm feelin' myself, jack rabbit
Feelin' myself, back off
Cause I'm feelin' myself, jack off
Heard he thinks about me when he whacks off
Whacks off? Wax off
National anthem hats off
Then I curve that nigga like a bad toss
Lemme get a number 2 with some mac sauce
On The Run Tour with my mask off
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Amour

I starred back at my reflection in the mirror. I couldn't help but to frown. I knew I shouldn't be frowning on my 18th birthday. I thought about my mom and then I thought about my dad.

It was crazy, the thoughts of my mom probably hating me right now was making my stomach hurt. I felt like I wanted to throw up and I did.

Bending over the toilet, I vomited everything I ate last night including breakfast. I heard a knock on the door and I quickly flushed the toilet and quickly brush my teeth.

"Come in!" I yelled, watching Aunt Cali come in with a huge smile on her face.

"Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! It's yo' birthday! It's yo' birthday! We gonna party like it's your birthday!" She sang, adding a little dance to it.

I laughed joining in on her little dance.

"Aye! Auntie come on we gotta do the bump now." I told her, giggling as we bumped our hips with each other.

"Whew girl, I can't keep up, Im tired." She breathed heavily.

"Yeah, I know cuz you getting old." I replied, earning a smirk.

Aunt Cali shook her head. "Breakfast is ready. Happy birthday girl, I love you." She said, kissing me on the forehead.

I smile. "I love you too, Aunt Cali!"

"I knew that." She hollered, walking out the door.

I laughed, brushing my hair into a ponytail and adding some edge control. I walked out my room before heading down the hallway into Ariel's room. She was still asleep, snoring. I tip-toe to her bed before jumping on it, waking her up.

"Happy Birthday Twin!" I yelled.

Ariel woke up, rubbing the crust out of the corner of her eye, looking at me with a grin.

"Happy birthday!"

"Now get your ass up!" I shout, ripping the blankets off of her.

Ariel shot up off the bed chasing after me as I ran down the steps and into the kitchen. I grabbed the cupcake that was sitting on the counter. I waited for Ariel to run so I hid underneath the table. When Ariel ran into the kitchen I walked behind her and when she turned around I smashed the cupcake into her face.

I laughed, turning around myself and was hit in the face with a cupcake from Angela. Angela smirk, kissing me on my forehead.

"Happy Birthday, sissy."

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Ass fat, yea I know
You just got cash, blow some mo'
Blow some mo', blow some mo'
The more you spend it, the faster it go
Bad bitches, on the floor, its rainin' hunnids
Throw some mo', throw some mo'
Throw some mo', throw some mo'

The club was bangin', I was surprised that X, was actually throwing Ariel's and I's surprise party at his club. Everything was in order. The music was good. The drinks was poppin'. Everyone seem to be having a good time.

No drama was going to be pulled, X made sure to have heavy security. The people I wasn't on good terms with wasn't even on my mind. I just wanted to spend this night with my family and friends.

I was dancing with Kendra when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see Tiffany, X's best-friend. I smiled and jumped with glee, hugging her. Kendra joins in on the hug. The last time I saw her was when she left for Michigan.

"My T-Bone back!" I shout.

Tiffany flips her hair over her shoulder. "Girl, you already know. I wasn't gonna miss y'all birthday!"

You can hear a squeal coming from behind us. Ariel, Genesis, Angela and Innocent came rushing towards Tiffany, pulling her into a hug. Kendra and I glance at each other before shrugging and joining the hug.

"Y'all my girls!" Ariel says, looking away.

"Ariel? I know damn well you ain't getting soft!" Innocent chuckles.

"Nah, ima G."

"Oh shit, Tiffany?" X says, walking towards us.

I smiled, loving what was about to take place.

Tiffany and X share a hug, which was one long ass hug. I always knew there was a connection between them. I just wished that they would see it and stop denying shit.

"Good to see you." Tiffany smiles.

I watch as they talk and X scanning over her body. He had a smirk on his face, which told me he likes what he is seeing.

If anything Tiffany was looking right in the Black Sheer Thing Tank Dress. The stretchy dress was constructed of sheer fabric. It was a sleeveless tank dress which finished with a rear hidden zipper. Her tribal print platform heels made a bold statement.

Kaiden came over greeting Tiffany and wrapping his arms around Genesis. Genesis smiled, planting a kiss on his cheek. Soon enough, Lion and Badass Tray joined. This moment felt right but I had tight feeling that this right moment wasn't going to last long.

Having my family here made my heart warm. The only person missing from this squad was Taz. I looked over at Ariel, I can see how she is looking at Kendra and Lion. She misses him. She misses Taz. Taz would always hold her in his arms, never letting go of her.

"Your not alone." Angela tells her.

Ariel smiles, holding Angela's hand.

I smiled at them, looking over their shoulders. My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach. There was Harlem standing at the entrance, talking to the bouncer as they shared a dap.

I walked away and towards harlem before anyone can say anything. I stood there in his face reaching for his hand. I wanted to make things right.
He was right, right for me. Instead of saying anything, he kissed me.

I kissed him back, letting his hands slide down to my waist.

"Your one rough nigga, can't ever be gentle." Harlem laughed pulling me outside away from everything. He lead me towards his car, leaning on it.

He opens the passenger side of the car, grabbing something which looked to be a small gift-bag. "Happy Birthday!"

I smile at him. "I guess you don't hate me?"

"Nah, I at first I thought you was being disloyal until ya' cousin explained everything."

I narrowed my eyes at him. "Which cousin?"

He smirked. "Ya' cousin Giselle."

"Oh, damn."

"It wasn't even like dat' but from what she told me, you've been missing daddy," Harlem smirked.

I looked the other way, trying to hide the smile on my face causing him to laugh.

"Shit, you don't--"

"Yo' we gotta go!" Angela says, running up to me, trying not to fall in her heels.

"Why? What's wrong?" I ask, scared shitless.

"Marilyn."

"What about her?"

"Ghost has her."