Loving Will

Chapter 25

I spent Saturday all day in bed thinking about Will, by Sunday I was marching up to his apartment. I knocked on his door twice waiting for him to answer. He took his time. I gasped as he opened the door. Will looked rough, his face held a dark shadow of facial hair. His eyes dark from lack of sleep and he stunk of booze.

I pushed my way in "I want to talk but you need to shower first."

He nodded his head following my direction, it wasn't a long shower but I hope it was long enough to wash the smell away. He came out wearing sweatpants and an old shirt that had faded. "I'm sorry you saw her kiss me. I didn't intend for the kiss to happen, she means nothing to me. I love you."

I tearfully nodded "I know you love me but why you the kiss happen?"

He looked down embarrassed "I was waiting for you to finish work, she insisted on hanging around. We were telling stories about the places we had worked when suddenly, she kissed me. I didn't think about it until I heard the sound of the glasses breaking and I saw you. I didn't comprehend her lips on mine, I never even touched her."

I nodded my head "thank you for being honest."

He grabbed my hands in his holding them tightly "what happens next between us?"

A tear ran freely down my face, I sniffed "I have a month and a half left until I graduate. I have exams coming up, prom and graduation. Let's take this time to consider if we are right together."

Will released his hands wrapping his arms around my body "it won't happen again, I promise. I want to be with you Carley. I love you."

I cried harder "I love you, too but I think we can use this time apart just to prepare for the rest of our lives."

"I don't want to be away from you, I can't be near you and know I'm not going to be able to kiss you, to touch you."

I wiped the tears away "this won't be easy for either of us Will. I will see you tomorrow at school." I kissed his cheek before leaving him alone.

The last month went by quickly, I didn't have much time to think about Will. Instead, I spent every waking moment studying for my exams. Will was still my teacher, seeing him every day was hard but it was better than not seeing him. He took this hard, I knew by looking at him, he didn't sleep very well. He was late to class a few times and he wasn't so put together.

An hour after I finished my last exam, I made my way to Will's apartment. I knocked on the door and waited for him to answer. It took longer than I wanted. Once he opened the door he was shocked to see me. I leaned against the door frame "are we able to talk?"

Will nodded wordlessly moving out of the way to let me in. I moved over to the couch sitting down. Will stood by the wall watching me "how are you?!

He shrugged exhausted "getting by, what about you?"

I watched his body for a moment "relieved that exams are over. You look like you need to sleep."

Will looked down to the floor, his face blank "sleep hasn't been easy to get."

I nodded 'why you look like you haven't slept in weeks."

Will nodded "when I close my eyes I think, I think that the reason you aren't in my arms is because of my action. I love you and I hurt you. That was fair of me."

I got, off the couch walking over to his, I wrapped my arms around his neck hugging him "I wanted to give you space, I wasn't punishing you."

I knew he started crying when my shirt became damp "let's get some sleep."

Will nodded against my shoulder "just don't leave me."

I walked with him into his room taking off my shoes. He stood there watching me, unsure of what to do next. I walked over to him unbuttoning his shirt and pants. I hugged him one last time before grabbing one of his shorts and canning in the bathroom. Before I got into bed beside him I grabbed a pair of shorts out of my draw.

He watched every move I made until I got in bed beside him. He rolled onto his side to face me, his hand cupping my face "I still love you."

I moved closer to him on the bed wrapping my arm around his waist "I never stopped loving you either Will. Close you eyes baby and go to sleep."

I watched him sleep for, the longest time, he looked so content. I laid down and closed my eyes sleeping beside the man I love. Hours after I had closed my eyes I opened them. Will was still beside me but this time he was awake. His fingers ran through the ends of my blonde hair. His eyes watched me, waiting for my first move. I didn't know what to say, I knew I had hurt him when I asked for space. I cuddled into his chest laying a kiss on his neck.

"Do you still want to be with me?" He asked in a vulnerable tone.

I looked up from my place on his chest "more than anything, do you still want to be with me?"

He closed his eyes relieved "yeah, I hated being away."

My eyes looked down at his lips, missing the warmth they gave mine. He didn't miss a minute, Will hastily smashed his lips on mine trying to make up for the last month of being away. His hand held me against his body refusing to let go. I ran my hand up to his arm as he pulled away "I have missed everything about you."