January 26 2020, went on my first date. I do like him... Or at least I want too. I'm emotionally exhausted and I want to leave. I don't like feeling this tired. I want to like him, I think he likes me? He's sweet but I don't think I like him as much as he likes me and I feel anxious about hurting him. I feel anxious in general though. I don't want to talk to anyone for awhile. I need a sick week and I need to love myself before I can let anyone close enough. I'm scared. I'm so scared of putting that much trust in someone. I don't want to think anymore. I'm anxious and I want to sleep. I just need to sleep. Maybe sleep and never wake up. I want to forget everything. I need a break. An emotional break. I need to stop thinking and relax. Maybe one of these nights I will.
