January 28 2020, I'm so tired of being so sad. I'm scared of living. Im scared. I finally talked to the parents. I have anxiety just thinking back to it. I love my dad. Thank you for listening without hurting me. My mom in the other hand. You telling me to fix it on my own even though I've tried to fix it for awhile. You always tell me that our genes have a lot of anxiety. I'm scared of everyone. I can't trust anytime, and this is precisely why. The rest of my notes on my old phone have disappeared. Those memories and feelings are different. I'm scared of the future. I'm scared of the past. Thinking about the present makes me unable to breathe. I want to forget everything. I'm done. I'm leaving for a bit. I'm going to Ev's and ill stay there for a bit. I don't want to talk anymore. I'm exhausted but unable to sleep. I just want to sleep. Please let me sleep. Please.
