Forever Indebted

don't tempt me again

Ben woke up with a weight on his chest, he panicked slightly until he saw where the weight was coming from. The brown haired angel curled up against his side, face directly on his chest, right hand resting over his heart. Ben took in every inch of her, the way her hair fell, single strands tickling her face. How her nose scrunched up, how her eyebrows slightly twitched as his finger traced them. He watched her soft pink lips as they inhaled and exhaled. He watched her eyelashes flutter as she opened her eyes at his gentle touch.

"Good morning angel." Ben let out as his hand ran through her hair. Rey closed her eyes at his touch, snuggling in closer to him. She turned herself onto her stomach, resting her chin on an open palm. She knew she had to ask him about what happened last night but she just wanted to revel in this moment a little longer.

Rey was tangled up in the sheets, her clothes still strewn across the room from the nights activities. "Ben, last night was..." Rey felt him draw in a sharp breath, "amazing. It was everything I could have wished for. I will never forget it, I'm so glad I get to share this memory with you forever." Rey entwined her fingers into his.

"But last night I... Rey I could have killed you. I remember the look in your eyes when I had your lightsaber aimed at you, I remember every feeling." Ben looked at the woman next to him with so much remorse and fear in his eyes. Rey sat up, taking his face in her hands.

"Ben we need to talk about last night. I need to know what happened, what you were going through. I want to be able to help you if that ever happened again." Rey loved the man in front of her so much that it pained her to see him deal with this alone. "Please Ben, I felt so defenceless not being able to help you."

"I don't sleep well. Ever since that night at the Jedi Academy. When I was awoken by the sound of a lightsaber igniting. When I saw the face of the man who was meant to protect me, my uncle looking down at me with this saber in hand." Ben looked distant for a moment. "When Snoke was training me as his apprentice he used to force me to watch it over and over again. There were times when he would lock me in a dark room, or leave me in a forest defenceless. He would wait until I was asleep then he would strike. He believed that making me live my fear over and over would force me to overcome it."

Rey held his hands in hers, squeezing them when he was tensing up. "So many times I'd be woken up to near death situations, having to protect myself while defeating the threat. Last night was one of those moments." Ben paused, tears welling in his eyes, "You were the threat. I could have killed you Rey."

She propped herself up onto her knees, grabbing his face prompting him to look at her. "No you couldn't have. You would never hurt me Ben. Last night I saw the fearful eyes of Kylo Ren, not the soft eyes of Ben Solo and that is okay. You were Kylo for a large part of your life, so much of your training and experiences come from being Kylo. I do not expect you to completely kill and erase every aspect of that part of your life, I can't expect that because it's not possible. We can't always be good, we can't always be bad. There is darkness inside each and everyone of us, we are all capable of doing terrible things but we're also capable of doing amazing things."

Ben was still unsure, "What if I become Kylo again?"

"Ben. Kylo will always be part of you, just as Ben was always part of Kylo. It is nothing to be afraid of, I will always be with you." Rey did all she could to help him feel reassured. She planted a soft kiss to his cheek, feeling his smile rise at the contact. He nuzzled his face into the crook of her neck, enjoying this interaction.

Rey hopped out of bed with a sheet still wrapped around her, hiding the absence of clothing. She extended a hand for Ben. "Come on, lets eat."

He climbed out behind her, taking her hand but tugging her another way. "Shower first." He told her with a smirk on his face. Her face flushed red at his comment, but she excitedly ran after him with a giggle escaping her lips.

She couldn't get enough of this man. He was like a god, tall and chiselled, carved from the very marble in this house. With a towel wrapped low around his hips, Ben carried Rey out of the bathroom, gently tossing her on their unmade bed. Everything about her was enticing him in, the water droplets lingering on her body, the devilish look in her eye. She reached a hand to his towel, tugging on it slightly, he caught it before it fell.

"No no no baby, don't tempt me again. I've already eaten," he said with a wink, "but you my lady, need to indulge in the foods Naboo has to offer." Ben went off to the walk-in wardrobe, leaving Rey to regather herself. To Rey's disapproval he came back with clothing on. A semi tight pair of black pants and a looser fitting navy blue top tucked in, a pair of boots completed the outfit. Ben pulled out a blaster holster from behind his back with a little chuckle, "I think this closet was my parents. Here I got you a few options."

He passed her a small pile of clothing, the first item was a semi-formal light blue gown. Rey thought it was gorgeous but impractical. She has lived her whole life in pants so dresses were foreign territory to her. She opted for outfit number 2, a pair of off white leggings and a short sleeved tan top that reached to almost mid-thigh. Comfy and practical, just how clothes should be.

Rey followed Ben out into the main living area of the house, it was just as beautiful now as it was last night. The ceilings were high, allowing light to bounce off the marble interior. The living area was larger than any place Rey has ever lived in her life, sitting areas were bountiful and there was no shortage of priceless décor. She watched as the tall man whipped up enough food to feed a village, plenty of fresh fruits and ingredients Rey had never seen before.

She devoured the flavourful spread, letting every taste linger on her tongue. "Ben this is amazing! I don't think I've ever eaten so much!" Rey let out as she bit into another fruit, the juice dribbling down her chin. Ben reached over, wiping the juice off her chin with his thumb, sticking it in his mouth after. Rey definitely didn't miss the wink her shot her, "No no no baby, don't tempt me again," she repeated what he told her earlier in the bedroom with a smirk plastered across her face.

"But you look so delicious baby, how can I resist you?" He scooted towards her, catching her lips with his before she could talk. Ben stood up, Rey wrapped her legs around him in the process. She felt the cold stone on her back as she was bumped into the counter, Ben lifted her a little higher sitting her on the counter, giving him better access to her. He trailed his lips down to her neck, nibbling on her sweet spot. Rey sucked in a sharp breath, throwing her head back.

Ben laughed against her skin, placing a soft kiss over the sensitive spot before pulling away, hopping her off the counter in the process. Rey lips let out the perfect pout, pulling on Bens heartstrings. "Later baby, I promise. First I want you to see the lake, I think you'll love it."

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Guys I apologise in advance if this chapter is a bit all over the place. I usually get my mum to proofread but for obvious reasons I didn't get her to go over this one 🤣

Also I want to clear up all the different spelling I use for 'lightsaber'. I'm Australian so our spelling rules are a little different, for example
Center (US English)
Centre (AUS English)

Any time it's spelt 'lightsabRE' it is the fault of auto correct, sorry for that!