6: Circus 'decision'

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There is always a certain moment in life that makes you take a rushed decision

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There is always a certain moment in life that makes you take a rushed decision.

Maybe you live for being quick to decide, perhaps it takes you days to decide – nevertheless, there will be moment in life that gives you a maximum of few seconds to make a decision. These decisions linger as long as thought-through ones do in the aftermath and the reason for that is the outcome.

One would say that rash decisions were not haunting, at least not as haunting as other decisions. Neither did they contain much concern nor were they big, but somehow still managed to be of importance.

Decisions, made in situations that demanded quick action, could be considered the worst ones. While some scenarios give the opportunity to think through the choices, other ones make you go through hell before, during and after making the decision.

Lisa thought there was a thin line between life and death, one that was visible during the most abrupt time, but as she witnessed Jeon Jungkook's life walking tightrope on that thin line, she realized death was everyone's neighbor.

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"That's what happens, when you drink several cups of coffee and eat nothing!", she heard her grandmother shout into the phone, causing Lisa to distance her phone a little and shut her eyes. That's what she got for worrying about someone's life? Not fair.

But then again, her grandmother could not know about it and Lisa doubted she would believe a story this crazy. In fact, she doubted anyone would believe that she was Jeon Jungkook's savior, because of a note that appeared on her phone – Lisa had a hard time believing it as well.

Was she delusional for starting to think that it hardly a coincidence?

"First of all, I had a single cup today", Lisa defended herself, after the old lady was done shouting at her. She held the phone near her ear again and opened her eyes. As sweet as her grandmother was to her, the moment she had something to worry about, she became a monster. "I'm alright, I swear... please don't worry"

Lisa purposefully avoided commenting on how she did not eat anything, because it would only upset her grandmother to hear, that she lacked appetite. It was a mystery to Lisa as well, normally her appetite was big and if it was not for her quick digestion, she would have gained a lot of weight.

Back then it was different, after her mother died it seemed like her appetite died as well – everything tasted the same. There was no desire to eat, which led her to force herself to eat as it was something she had to do in order to stay alive. It was not uncommon for what was eaten to find its way out again, the first times she forced the food inside.

And perhaps Lisa would have continuously lived that lifestyle, but thankfully someone was there to rescue her from ruining herself.

"I am breathing, can't you see that I'm alive? Why do you act like I'm on the verge of dying, grandma?"

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